i do think in this political climate its inescapable and necessary to read or reread books like night watch. because i reread it specifically for the uprising i was able to focus on how political it actually is and it astounds me, it really does, that terry wrote this in 2003 and which such anger too. i teared up many times during this particular reread bc its so accurate, too accurate to our current world order and that fucking sucks. i was so angry reading it this time bc the unmentionables are literally ICE and lord winder is all the insane world leaders and ppl finally tried to do smth about them in the book and it lead to Nothing. actually, it lead to snapcase, who in some ways is worse than winder. and that hurts, deep in my chest, it really does. and what hurts more is vimes in this book. this has always been my favorite version of him, but god. i never really got the importance of his role in it all. he's able to stay kind and sane throughout all of the atrocities even as he's reliving it for the second time. its so so soooo important to me how hard he fights against the beast. the circumstances give him an opportunity, and in a way demand him to be ruthless and he still doesn't give in. he doesn't kill until absolutely necessary, he protects the innocent the weak and even the stupid and he does it lawfully and he does it while trying to teach his younger self to be a good person. he doesn't lose his humanity in the darkest of times and doesn't succumb to the beast bc what he was was not the beast. because if you become the beast people like carcer win. ok ill stop before i start sobbing on the street but yeah even seven rereads cant dull night watch's light