#nights garbage thoughts

[miss-night]

Just finished Of the Northmost Winds and Skies!!

I am miserable. I wanna draw something for it but my brain is mud but I will attempt something… maybe.

Anyway this story was beautiful and amazing. I loved every second and I’m actually proud that I managed to finish it since it was so BIG. That HiJack in me is apparently starving. Scary.

The story was fun and charming and I can feel my heart wanting to crawl out of my chest. I loved it so much. I genuinely can’t express further how much I adore the story.

Also the writer is insane because how did you write all that in like a year…. You know no bounds I guess.

Also more than once did Jamie make me laugh, he’s so silly. He’s going to be an awful teen haha. Blame Jack full stop.

[miss-night]

Going back to my DCA fic I was writing except I don’t really remember anything and I didn’t finish my notes at all…

I was ambitious but dang I wish I finished it back then

[miss-night]

Me right now because I’m writing Cupheads character and he lowkey sucks to write. Like omg why are you like this? What is your problem? I feel despair thinking about when I have to write the others omg it’s going to be awful—

Im clenching my fist and shaking in frustration

[miss-night]

Tags because I get lost in my madness.

Random moto I came up with a few days ago. That I want to see everywhere I go.

DON’T STOP. KEEP MOVING.

You keep moving and don’t ever stop. No matter what.

12/23/25

[miss-night]

Random thing. I was at an appointment and we were just talking as one does. Except I can’t fully remember what my therapist was saying and then all of a sudden I feel really weird. Like I felt fuzzy and like the white noise fuzzy and cold. Like I was fainting. I know a part of me was freaking out over it like I wanted to cry but then after a weird minute I was kinda okay again? It’s still kind of happening like i feel a warmth in my brain thats sharp. I just never experienced that before. Even weirder I was really tired before this happened and then I kind of woke up like I wasn’t tired anymore I was energized. But now I’m tired again and feel fuzzy.

I just don’t know where this tiredness is coming from. Maybe I need to eat something. I’ll report back lol

[miss-night]

I need someone to hold me at gun point so I can do things. The things are my hobbies ™️

[miss-night]

I’ve reached over sleeping again. Which sucks I was doing so well 🥀

Also I need to draw…. You hear that me? Draw.

[miss-night]

Me right now trying to find the motivation to make a comic…

I can be ambitious so I know why I haven’t (three panels turns into 12). BUT I REALLY WANT TO! I want to sketch out ideas for stories in my head. But my perfectionism and evil mind tell me no. I also don’t really know how to make a comic.

Like I do, I think—it’s just because I get real nick picky about things and trying to figure out angles and suddenly nothing makes sense it looks weird and I need to stand and stare at the wall and think about what I’m doing—

And then I scrap the whole thing and cry.