#nihilistikal

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Dressing up for fun, first time in idk how long

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I think it's hilarious that I look like a fucking priest on this fine Christmas eve lmao

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3, 11, 25 && 38 blz :3

3) 3 films you could watch for the rest of your life without getting bored of?

Repo! The Genetic Opera (@g-mutant showed me that one!)

This one is just... it's so multilayered when you examine various song's lyrics. I keep finding more layers. Onion of a movie that chewed on every dollar in its' budget appropriately and deserved ten times it. REvil fans are likely to enjoy it on broached themes alone and the entire style is real cybergothy... plus... Nathan. I could watch Repo! for more Nathan... I have a crush on the Night Surgeon.

Black Mirror: Hated in the Nation

This 'movie' is one of my favorites to show to people I don't know to gauge their opinions on a lot of vaguely political things; the second is how people respond to the movie Fight Club. It's a movie that unsubtly reminds you about the horrors that are encountered when the government has janitorial keys to every software stack and library you use - and what happens when those keys are discovered, a la Eternal Blue.

Madoka Magica: Rebellion

It requires a full watch of the original anime to understand what's going on, and intentionally deceives the viewer with very subtle hints that something is wrong and it's not just an alternate timeline; the visuals are grungy and psychotic and speak of a deep psychology, every hallucinatory element a carefully presented memory made tangible in a hellscape (a nightmarescape?). This is to the point of it having its' own written conlang.

11) What do you consider to be romance?

I have to preface this with the fact that I'm leaving out what is so clearly obviously romantic to me because it's unhealthy. It comes from things I've experienced in my life that my brain is romanticizing to deal with the magnitude of. Beneath this crust, though...

...there's a lot of romance in subtle touches, quietly existing with another person, late nights spent basking in eachother's interests and absorbing eachother's knowledge like a sponge.

I think sharing things you enjoyed reading or documentaries is really romantic. Like sitting and watching a documentary and commenting on it together, picking it apart. Or sending eachother Arxiv/Researchgate/Scihub stuff. I have done both with people and it always felt like they were making a Maximum Friendship Boost move.

There's nothing I love more than to make an unsubtle callback to something someone's told me a long time ago to show them I'm listening to what they tell me and retaining that info. It's love when this is not something you do manually; it's love when you absorb someone's interests and adopt them yourself with the most potent plucked string being the fact that they enjoyed it first.

Sidenote: there is a certain implicit trust in sharing exploits with someone if those exploits are undeclared or rarely spoken of; there is also an implicit trust in sharing source code to things you've programmed with your comments slathered over them like footnotes in a novel. The deeply personal, unfiltered thoughts are always a treat to dissect.

25) Favorite season and why?

Fall. Halloween. I LOVE TO DRESS UP AS MY GUYS FOR WHOM I AM DEEPLY UNWELL. Next year is gonna be Karl Heisenberg or Edward Nashton, I feel it.

...or maybe Birkin. He is the only one whose bodytype I actually fit like a glove; he's got the same attack chihuahua vibes.

...your old Wesker fit is still one of the highlights of what I saw that Halloween on my dash!!!

28) Do you collect anything?^2

A secondary answer: I love to host things. I have hosted Minecraft servers, SillyTavern web servers, a smattering of many web UIs, entire MMO landwalker asset servers...

I also love to collect different crash dumps from computers I've successfully diagnosed - the second I open a .dmp file, all of what I know about that computer and where in that .dmp I solidified my knowledge of its' issue springs back to me and makes me feel proud.

Thanks for asking! :D