okay so im pretending to do what my therapist said and write down my daydreams so maybe it'll stop bothering me as much. but instead it's mostly dialogue for rn
nihlus: you're a spectre now you need to get used to getting up early
zan: okay so why the fuck does saren get to sleep in
nihlus: well that's because saren is a lost cause. also he's older than you and needs more sleep. because he's an old, cranky lil man
saren: i am literally three years older than you nihlus you ass
garrus: maybe you should at least pretend to take care of yourself..
zan: absolutely not. ive decided to die out of spite and neglect before Cerberus can hurt me. also fuck you
garrus: commander you're going to die by being a dumbass. are you aware of this fact?
zan: my dude. my buddy pal. are u sure lecturing me while im bleeding out is a good plan?
garrus: this is the only time i can get you to listen so
zan: saren is like one of those lil chihuahuas yknow? tiny and made entirely of rage and anxiety. and we all make fun of it til he bites our hand off
zan: saren i would die for you
zan: that is deeply ominous but also a future me problem
zan: im not a man or a woman im a being made entirely of caffeine and currently, vodka
zan: see what you've all done? you've driven me to drinking
wrex: varren. kid you were getting drunk long before you met us
zan: fshut the fuck up shut your entire face
zan: hey saren nihlus is practically making out with the gun again you might want to get him
nihlus: it's because you're an insecure lil fuck with a long history of daddy, abandonment and self worth issues, who seeks attention from any willing source, even at the expense of your own health
zan: jesus fuck nihlus you didn't need to murder me. not in the middle of town
some dumbass: god you should kill yourself
zan: fuck you you lazy bitch im not doin the work. you want me dead do it your own damn self fuck you
zan: -in text- hewwo?? mw sawen hewwo??
saren: i fucking hate you
zan: nihlus pls my crops are dying
nihlus: you don't have crops
zan: it's an expression and you know what you a s s
zan: -throwing their biotics- YEET- oh shit fuck dad sparatus im sorry- wait no councilor dad- waIT FUCK
desolas: ngl there are times i wish i ended you when i had the chance
zan: sounds like a you problem b i t c h
