I Still Bleed...
I don't think my place has ever been so clean, schmick and empty before... It's such a surreal feeling preparing to leave my home that has provided me with so much comfort, support, love, peace, gratitude and space to just be me... It may look beautiful but the feeling of being in this home far outweighs how it looks. The perfection of it being prepared to go on the market, actually feels less like home just because it's made to make it look so presentable.... But it's the quirkiness, the few bits and pieces that most people don't understand, that make it my home. It's tough and it's going to be an emotional ride and way beyond my comfort zone but it's a decision I've already made. I am dedicating my life to my message of self-love, self-awareness and empowering others. And that means sacrificing aspects of what I love dearly, to have more to offer and give. It's hard, but I'm letting go out of love. Love for a desire for what this home can do for me, what it has done for me, and the fact that I take my home wherever I go... Because my home is inside of me... As tears roll down my face accepting this feeling of a chapter closing and a sense of loss... I will remain focused on remembering... Life is a journey... "If we want to experience more... We must let go of what we currently have, to make room for what we desire be" ~ Nina Concepcion Upcoming book The Naked You I just thought I would share this with you guys to show you that a lot of decisions I made are hard. They are painful. I'm human and feel emotions just like you. A lot of people have been asking me lately isn't it hard? Isn't it scary? Of course it is! But my reason for facing my fears, far outweighs the habitual nature of being comfortable. Once you have a real reason, it's impossible not to decide. And that's the only difference. I'm still scared. I still have fears. I still fall. I still hurt. I still bleed. But I just keep going because I see the beauty on the other end. I see the life I desire. I see me inspiring you guys to stop being so complacent and to stop tolerating what makes u miserable! And if I can do that... Then I've succeeded and all the pain I've experienced has been worth it all. All because I choose to love. I choose to be vulnerable. And I choose to show people that the best thing you can do for the people around you and yourself is to be YOU. Yes at times it'll hurt, but it'll be TEMPORARY. Choosing to live an unhappy, unfulfilled life is a LIFE-LONG pain. It's ok to hurt, but don't let that stop you from being you and doing what you love! ~ Nina Concepcion