hi let me just love vomit on you and tell you how i binged all your fics while i was unemployed and job hunting. im new to stevebucky ship but i stumbled reading your fics and fell right in the rabbit hole. no widows tonight is my favorite of all you've written and i still find myself reading it whenever i feel down bc of how depressing post-graduate life is. i've been reading fics forever and same story; diff ways has definitely climbed its way to my all-time faves. ty for sharing it
bby I'm so glad you got some catharsis!!! that's literally why I love this fandom so much, there are so many people who are able to latch onto stucky, relate to them, and make something beautiful with their personal messes in this medium. I write so much about steve&bucky with depression bc it helps me put into full English the things I've felt, I write eating disorders bc it helps me understand my own struggle, I write about sexual violence bc it helps me understand how I grew up and what I experienced as a kid. there's a line in "honestly tho" in chapter 14(?), steve insists that his abuser never hit him, and bucky says "sometimes that's worse." writing this stuff in the first place gave me catharsis, and now I've shared it y'all have come forward so much to say how much it meant to them. like I've written original shit, but nobody came up to me to say how much they felt what I wrote about with that. with fanfic, not only do I get to feel better, but y'all tell me what it did to you, and that makes me feel even better, like I'm actually doing something, yannow? idk if any of this made sense, I hope I didn't sound pretentious or nothing, it just always makes me smile when y'all send me messages like this. makes my heart go warm and fuzzy. bc reality is shitty, but we got these superhumans that have the same shitty problems. it makes me feel more human.
