I wish I could be as sexually liberated as some people out there. I've been sexualized since I was 5, by family, neighbors, and teachers. I can't bring myself to do it... I feel like whatever innocence I had was taken from me a long time ago. My art often features nude women; I see the female body as an art form. However, posting pictures of myself in a swimsuit is where I draw the line. I can't do it, even though I know it might boost my online reputation. I can't recall a time when I could. Though I admit I'm envious of those who can – yes, I said it.
Oh, I was thinking about this the other day. I've stopped wearing a full face makeup for some time now. Occasionally, I'll wear subtle lipstick color, mascara, or eyeliner maybe 1-2 times a month. When I used to wear makeup, there was a time when I wouldn't leave my house without it. The cannon event for me was when I started working in a couple of male-dominated environment, and back-to-back incidents left me utterly disgusted by how I was treated and how some men looked at me – even those with wives and children. It was revolting. I had to take a few trips to HR, but there was no resolution since they were all buddies.
Interestingly, it was only when I didn't wear makeup that I wasn't objectified. That's when I was treated with respect. However, on those occasions, the men would often ask, 'Are you sick?' or 'Did your boyfriend break up with you? So, I said fuck you. This is my face and you're gonna accept it as it is.
Outside of work, I just couldn't bear the unwanted attention any longer. Men seem to think that just because you dress up and put on some simple makeup, they can say the most vulgar things to you (not all men) I haven't worn makeup like that in about 6 years. I'm not that old, guys! 😭
I told myself the man I will marry would never see me with makeup he will love me with or without. After that I met my hunk of monk, 6 years strong. Oh and I got gross I stopped shaving and went feral. I wanted to repel men. And it worked 😂
These are my experiences, and I understand the qualities and healing power of makeup. To each their own. ❤️🔥 I want to emphasis not all men. But, you'd be amazed how often men comment on female bodies inside of work environments.
