I think like a month or two ago I found out I was aroace, i had never previously thought I mightve been but here's some weird things I did when I was younger that was probably me being aroace
–forced multiple crushes, the first one was in 1st grade, the second was in 3rd grade, and the third one was in fifth-sixth grade
–first 'crush' was reciprocated, second was not (EXTREMELY embarrassing, who wants a storytime?) third was limerence, and then i stopped forcing crushes
–was always uncomfortable/disgusted with the thought of romantic/sexual relationship with literally ANYONE, including fictional chatacters
–physically cringe and recoil when I imagine myself kissing anyone
–experienced limerence once irl, and then a bunch more times with fictional characters
–went by a TON of specific microlabels to describe how i felt (omnisexual, cupioromatic, desinoromantic, etc.)
–was incredibly confused with my identity which caused the above
–forced crushes and microlabels also lead to a fair share of embarrassing stories I would LOVE to share
And also some sort of non-aroace things I do
–absolutely loves shipping. Oddly with characters I relate to.
–wanting to be loved beyond platonically
–despite hating the thought of kissing, likes physical touch/cuddling
–dear God I hate the world cuddle
–what even is that spelling?
Anyways this post is getting pretty long so imma tune out.
