#nonsense brabble

[art-of-mathematics]

This smells like "infinitesimally approaching infinity"... and we all know what this may imply - shoving it towards the event horizon of the imaginary place called "later"...

[art-of-mathematics]

Today's thought gibberish (random splinters of thought that popped up in my mind)

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Durch jeden Missverfolg gewinnt man Erfahrungen.

Demnach ist Versag durchaus ein Schritt zum Erfolg.

Reiht man viele Schritte aneinander - so ergibt sich daraus ein Weg, den man selbst erschafft während man ihn geht.

Das Ziel dabei ist nur der Prozess des Gehens, - des Lernens, des Entstehens, des Erfahrens.

Ich weiß nicht, was mein Ziel ist, doch diese Art von UNgewissheit gibt mir die Möglichkeit, jeden Tag frei zu entscheiden, welchen Weg ich gehen möchte.

Dadurch, dass etwas nicht vordefiniert ist, nicht vorbestimmt, kann es sich frei entfalten.

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In uncertainty lies opportunity.

In uncertainty lies opportunity to change.

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[Self-determination], and [environmental and situational restrictions] can and will co-exist.

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[art-of-mathematics]

I remember reading one of Nietzsche's quotes one day, stating: "You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star."

As chaos is a strive for equilibrium, caused by a break in symmetry - or "a break in the conformity of the whole", it enables a dynamics to arise becoming an ever-repeating chain reaction. "Unity by polarity"; a self-interference between antithetic reflections; [butterfly clones]

As a kid I often had nightamares of a massive chain reaction. I was in an almost infinite room, in the back there was a trigger. A ball rolls. At first it was as tiny as a marble, when it approached me it became as large as the moon or earth itself. It rolled me over. I almost suffocated everytime I woke up to that dream.

Chaos is just a re-ordering, a re-distribution, if you want. By smashing the conform whole, the "grey", you break it into its components, polarity and antithetic states, and re-arrange them to form another picture, until the components turn to a conform whole again, that is equilibrium.

I had this idea since I was a kid, I often had "existential flashbacks" where I instantly knew about evolution from deep within, both cosmic as well as earthly one, it was deja-vus. It confused me. But maybe reality is really that way. Somewhat I understand jany things Tesla mentioned. And actually, most of it doesn't appear nuts to me anymore. Do I become delusional or are the fundamental patterns of reality really that bizarrely and surreally beautiful?

[nodus-vacui]

effugium ex terrori realitatis per comprehensionem realitatis

Escape from the terror of reality by comprehension of reality

[nodus-vacui]

comprehendo nihil est comprehensibilis

I understand that nothing is understandable.

[geistiger-abfall]

Ich muss mal wieder das geistige Klosettbecken bestücken... mit, ihr werdet es nicht glauben, Gedankenkot oder -kotze... Was auch immer, ist hin wie huppe, wo der Abfall herkommt, von oben, von unten, von drinnen oder von draußen... oder aus einer nicht-orientierbaren Oberfläche... (Kotze ich nun in das Becken hinein oder aus dem Becken heraus?)

[regenbogenabgrund]

Dass irgendjemand meine Bullshit-Ideen toll findet verwundert mich. Um ehrlich zu sein bin ich um die mentale Gesundheit dieser Individuen besorgt.