#noonecaresem

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I might have mellowed out a little, so any ranting I do probably won’t be as bad. I can’t tell though. Feel free to ignore all this.

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Would any of my friends be willing to let me rant at them? I’ve been fighting the urge to rant at someone for the better part of today. (Normally I’d rant at my girlfriend, but I can’t about this.) It’s not bad, I just need to rant. And it’s fine if no one does. I’m just kind of excited I guess.

[ghostwithheadphones]

Tfw your anxiety flares up and you CAN'T GET IT TO GO AWAY AGAIN.

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Tfw your anxiety flares up and you have to fight against it not to make a stupid decision.

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Let’s Just Assume...

That my scanner alters colors and my art tends to look better in person. Except for the rare occasions when it doesn’t.

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Male Classmate and I: *In class chatting about Markiplier and youtubers*

Classmate: Hey you two lovebirds, can you...(rest is unimportant)

Me: What? *Gives him a look like "what the hell are you on?"*

Male Classmate: No, sorry but no. *Kinda laughing* Not for the reason you're probably thinking of though.

Me: No. *sill like "what?"*

Classmate: What reason is that?

Male Classmate: I don't want to say,you'll probably think different of me for it. (Male classmate is still pretty new to the school.)

Me: *Immediately thinks he's gay.* I might know, but I don't want to say. (What follows is an awkward conversation of him trying to get out what I think and me trying to convey quietly)

Male Classmate: You're right. (Has a conversation about stuff with me. I tell him that I'm Bi and eventually that I'm in a relationship with a girl. We both kinda quietly laugh stuff off. Finally start working on homework. End of class female classmate who was part of the whole not the reason you think guesses right agrees to stay quiet. Is actually a popular.)

Me: *opinion of him doesn't change. Still a pretty cool guy.*

Stuff like that can be kinda awkward, and I'm grateful that most of the populars at my school are actually pretty cool. (At least the girls.) It's funny what happens in small town schools.

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TFW...

Something really sad has happened/is going to happen, but you don’t know how to deal with it so you avoid it. Dealing with it, thinking about it, being around it, any of that. Just ignore, avoid, block out, force yourself away.