Oct 5, 2023
we love Lovejoy
dont you just love when the band simply breaks reality
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we love Lovejoy
dont you just love when the band simply breaks reality
disassociation is genuinely insane bro. I’m not completely out of it rn but im a lot more conscious and i suddenly realized I’d written literally thousands of words of vent messages to multiple friends, my tumblr drafts (luckily), my notes app, etc, that I keep finding and not recognizing at all. i literally do not remember writing them. if you’d been in my face it would’ve been like I wasn’t present in the room. my descriptions of how I was feeling were talking about how I was a body who couldn’t physically feel the temperature of the room wandering around wondering where I was, and how everything looked like a prop. what set me off was really upsetting (so much so that like. I can’t see it entirely, it didn’t all save to memory) but I was in people’s DMs being like HAAIIIII XD I THOT I WAS GOING TO DIE THERE FOR A SEC. XD XD XD!!!!! YOU CAN LAUGH. LMAOOO. like 👍 very cool thank you Lee
Is it a nerodivergent thing, or do nerotypicals also have to fill awkward silences with the most random things possible?
i did not write today but i DID watch 3 entire hockey games which is basically research at this point. like i thought about hockey at least 80% of the day that HAS to count for something
One fine halloween mv is worth 100 therapy sessions (real)
every night I stand next to my bed and think "this would be a good time for a monster to reach out and grab me" and I let that sit a moment, nothing happens, and I crawl into bed.
micro dosing on continuing my fan comic outline by listening to my writing playlist while animating
I know I shouldn't pre grieve but I feel like I have to. he has metastases in his bones, and it's not like he is dying tomorrow, but I have no idea how it's going to change. like a year ago he was going to the gym and now he is in pain and can hardly move without his meds. and I would always think I'd be old enough and have someone by my side to get through this grief when it happens. but it's happening so fast and I'm alone and I guess that's just how it is