I made myself blank.
I stood perfectly still.
My words, precious and few,
I kept to myself.
I took their shit.
I let it slide
over both shoulders,
falling into my pockets.
The weight made me strong.
The wait made me strong.
I did my time,
like we all do our time.
At night, in bed alone,
my fingers walked over my naked skin,
digging their nails into my
every perceptible imperfection.
Tearing the surface of every bump
left a scab, now a scar.
“You can’t leave anything alone.
You can’t let anything go.”
All I could do was turn it over.
In my mind, I could only surrender,
but there is a part of me
that cannot resist a fight.
There is a part of me
that cannot stand idly by.
There is a part of me
that cannot live a lie.
That part of me
is the reason I survived.
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