quick question. so remember that christmas letter saga i mentioned earlier this year? the one where my family always has me write the letter we send to all our friends and acquaintances, but this year they all hated the one i wrote (because it mentioned breonna taylor)? well my mom decided to write a new one herself and i encouraged her to do it because do your own thing hon, if you don’t like mine make your own! WELL now that has come to bite me thoroughly in the ass because she wants me to send the letter she wrote to a relative of ours that is only connected to us by me (she lives across the world and i slogged across that world to find her and meet her and know her).
aaaand im just now reading this letter she wrote and, Oh Irony, I hate it. I’m just like my family were about my letter. I do not want to send this to anyone who knows me. I do not think it would read well to this relative AT ALL—she is very restrained, and the letter brags about all of us non-stop in a way that makes me very uncomfortable. so what do i do now? I told my mom this letter was fine when she wrote it, just to get the thing done because this stupid letter saga was throwing our whole family apart and I thought, hey, the important thing is just to get it in the mail to show our friends we’re thinking about them. But now I’m actually about to send this to someone I care about, I can’t stand it. What do I do? write another letter in the dead of night and send that, completely ridiculously, in a bit of Christmas-card related subterfuge? send this fucking awful one complete with a long note attached disavowing the whole disaster? If I send this godawful one, my mom will be happy, but I think it’ll read completely wrong to the relative and make her think badly of the whole lot of us. Which, you know, I really don’t want, because I like and value her a lot.
