I wanna get rid of something that has been sadly become a new topic to me. And to be honest, it's stressing me extremely. It's about a friendship that ended in a very... not nice way. And you can't be good with everyone. It never happened publicly and I also never wanna make it public. With names I mean. Not that. However, I wanna mention it anyway. I've been thinking about this a lot recently. If I want to talk about it. And I'm at the point were I just don't care anymore because it has been affecting my mental health a lot and made me feel very terrible in the last days.
And I just wanna say this here because I'm not quite sure what and if things has been said about me in a negative context. It might be. But I don't know. So here I am. Mentioning it publicly. Not to pick a fight. Not to blame. Not to get sympathy. But because I... yeah, maybe I also wanna protect myself. I've lost a lot of trust because of what happened. Maybe I'm paranoid. Maybe my little own demons are just trying to push myself into spiraling. And to be honest, I do spiral. And I put myself in a very vulnerable position with posting about this. However with some things I have heard, with some things that I was told... It might be true. But I don't care anymore. I've been open about a conversation about all this. Maybe clear things up. I don't care anymore about a conversation. But I wanna say here, for everyone to read, that I'm very open for discourse, discussion about it or whatever. So, if it's true and things were said. First, never believe only one side. And second. I'm more than open to talk about it in private.
I know this is all very cryptic. I don't wanna cause stress or anything. But in case things are being spread behind my back, I won't to make sure everyone knows I'm open to talk.
Thank you.
