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[pinetreeoverme]

Backpedaling like a Mofo

Aight, lovable cocksuckers one and all. Fall in, and lend me your ears, or first Sarn’t is gonna smoke the dogshit out of us all.

Listen, I’m as surprised as you are to see me back on here. I figured, hey, fuck it, I’m gonna be in the box soon. And that hasn’t changed. Hell, I may have less than a week left before I’m out-CONUS and having fun in the sun, with the added benefit of introducing ISIL to varied calibers of... displeasure.

To that end, I kind of put a kibosh on my affairs. Will drawn up, power of attorney given to a trusted friend, vehicle handed over to family to take care of, and I figured fuck it. I’m not doing much writing anyways, may as well put my Tumblr on hold as well, with trusted and skilled writers prepped to take over my major projects if I do something stupid.

Well, that kinda changed. Part of that is because I’m admittedly reaching for something to fight the nerves with, partly because I’m bored as shit and aching to get back in the fight, and part of that is because inspiration struck out of the goddamn blue.

To that end, the first chapter of Sunburnt Penguins, my new, finished multi-chapter fic, will be coming up before the end of the week. Moreover, in a first for me, these chapters will be queued up- meaning that you may be reading things relatively fresh off the York Press while I’ve been busting heads in the sandbox. Even if I throw out two chapters a week, that gives you at least a month of fresh word-vomit.

So huzzah! Now that I’ve broken the tac pause, I’ll probably just vanish out of fucking nowhere, but hey, that’s another 19k words to read for those folks who like the Outsider AU for some reason.\

-York, Rambler Extraordinaire, ‘Cester of Pines, Buster of Heads, The Never-Sober

[pinetreeoverme]

A tactical pause- hopefully not a goodbye

WELL! So, life is about to get interesting. By which I mean, of course, I am rapidly approaching m little overseas trip, and a bit faster than planned. As a result, unfortunately, I'll be gone from here for about a year. I had hoped to get a break in during this time, but events, alas, conspired against me. I'm not on a fast-moving train- I'm stapled to the undercarriage, with all the stress that implies. That being said; I will return, barring some bad luck. After all, I still have the Outsider AU to continue, as well as my counter-assault for the Hundred Tears War, which I have been forced to neglect. So. I had planned for some deep words about duty, loyalty, and fighting the good fight, laying down your life if that's what's required. Fuck that. I'll return, and I'll bring fics with me when I come. Keep your heads on a swivel, you wonderfully demented cocksuckers. York, out.

[shipsaremadeofpinetreesandstars]

Feeling really discouraged rn What is up with this shit, like This morning i was ready to tAKE on the WORLD--I even put makeup on! And now all of a sudden i feel like im not good for anything, might as well give up... I think it was triggered because i wasnt validated by a close friend when i told him the things i had done today, and he didnt want to have lunch with me... i know its because hes stressed (he has a vocabulary quiz rn that he forgot about) but it feels???? Personal??? ?? ????? I know thats ridiculous, but it is what it is Actually this has been happening a lot lately: ill start the day happy and excited but then at around 12-4ish ill suddenly drop. Its like the time of day is triggering it?? I really just I dont know whats going on and its unpleasant and scary and i just dont know what to do Its not always dramatic like crying and sobbing; sometimes its just a need to sit down, and then the inability to move. (Sometimes it IS crying etc) I have a counselling appointment tomorrow, but do any of you know what this is? Thanks for any help ♡☆♡☆♡♡♡