#not striving

[blueberriesjust]

I'm not thriving, striving, or surviving right now 😭😭

Anyways here's a photo of Paul

[loiclopezauthor]

Doing Your Best Expectations are a plague; not only other people’s but also our very own. My impression is that we all tend to have higher expectations than what we can actually manage and this very often stops us from doing our best.

[interwovenwithabba]

My heart.

My heart is so hungry for more of Jesus. I have become complacent, but y'know when you get to a point where you get sick of sitting in the same spot. In the last month, I hit a spiritual dryness that I didn't look to come out of or strive to seek him in the dryness. I just sat there motionless watching as the world passed me by. I knew Jesus, I knew he loved me, he did speak to me don't get me wrong, but I didn't strive to be spoken to again even if it was days without being spoken to, I don't love people like I should I don't even like a lot of people. And I'm scared of that place I don't want to be in that stupor again. for the last two days iv become fidgety, not satisfied with the pace, I want so much of Jesus right now that I want to scream out, but it's not been because of emotions this time. My deep soul wants this, depth. To know him like the back of my hand.. I know I cant and won't til I get to heaven but I'm going to pretend that I can and strive for that goal and know him so much more. I want to delve into the depths of his being through his word. To really know what Jesus would do not just were it on a bracelet. I want to spend so much time in his presence that all I think about is him, that my focus would be completely switched back on him, that I would see HIS will for my life. That people would have to tell me shut up because I'd be so obsessed with him. I want to be his warrior, his lion.