#notagoodweek

[whatsinthebinn]

Who needs to commit suicide when scratch lay on that vein all the time? #notagoodweek

[make--way--for--the--gay]

When you're sad and just want someone to tell you it's okay. 😔

[patsophat]

Do you have that voice in your mind that tells you that you will be a failure in life? Well he is speaking loud and clear today.

[stillsuperman]

Dont Piss me off when im pissed off

On the way back to the apartment yesterday i was feeling rather stressed out. Graduation is coming up, all the shit for grad school is piling up, stupid nonsense for senior week, my parents friggin planning to move the MD which Im not ready to leave ny yet, stuff for my job after graduation and my financial licenses for NY, my brother's wedding coming up where apparently i need to help for, and on top of all that idk wtf is going on in my personal life.

So i was driving back to the BX yesterday and some doucherocket in a Neon SRT kept on riding me and it became annoying so i put his piece of shit in its place. We did a 2nd gear pull and btw there is no reason to have 5 to 6 gauges in a damn neon. ITS A FUCKING NEON. Personally you should really have about three gauges...boost,air/fuel, and temp. Anyways, I destroyed him on the 2nd gear pull and came up by 4th gear but then began cutting me off when i slowed down so ive had enough and weaved through traffic to leave him back. Then an Eclipse showed up and it ended as quickly as it started. He beeped at me and I downshifted and left him back there too. idc if your car will beat me in straight line, Means nothing if you dont know how to drive it

[monkeywriter]

Been a rough couple of days...

...and I am trying to breath now as the week comes to a close.

So far this week. I have learned California is an at will state meaning they can fire you for any reason or none and its OKAY! For real? Really sucks. Which means the state wont help me with being fired.

I finally called my former job last night left a voice mail after my letter of last week because they werent contacting me. They called me back today so I talked to them. Honestly there is no point in contacting them. According to the lady I talked to its all up to HF what happens they cant do anything on their end. Oh and the investigation is still going on? 3 weeks later? WTH But my letter will go on file, my record is clean and if I want I can come back this season? For real? Who would come back after all this? I wanted to laugh but I said nothing till I got off the phone and laughed then.

I have an appointed by phone with Unemployment on the 29th. I am disappointed as I was hoping they might send me money by next week. I really need it! Instead who knows how long this will take if I get any. They just want to know more about my last job because the space they give you to explain online is very tiny. Whatever. I tried and cant do anything.

My sisters car is dying. The mechanic screwed it up worse then it was when she went in. Now my parents are working hard to try to get their money back. And she can drive it but she cant get it smogged so her permit expires end of month again and unsure if they will keep letting her get temp ones. She wants to drive it all the way to AZ. But it gets poor mileage now, her oil is way more costly this way. She wont have it much longer really no idea what to do about getting a new car! Unless someone gives her one or something she is in big trouble....the worse that we thought could happen has taken place!

I havent heard back about jobs. I have now applied to 3 different parts of LL. As of tomorrow I will be contacting someone there to talk to them. This is just retarded they wont contact me because of what happened last year.

I have to go and clean our garage now. Its been a whole year as of now we moved all that extra stuff from storage and havent done a thing with it. My dad wants the front part for his *space* for his new business whatever that means. So now that stuff will be moved to the front. Our garage isnt that big and this really sucks and it was one of the few places I could put stuff besides the house. Our room is super tiny not even big enough for one person, neither of us have an office to use (using dinning room table is temporary and annoying). Living here gets more painful each day. I guess it keeps us on our toes so we know this isnt for good in any form.

Anyways thats my week...and its not over yet. Due to the car issues I am unsure if we can do much volunteering in the future. May be saying good bye to the flower fields. I hope we can get a car or something but summer for comic con that is something I really want to do. Unsure about anything else. Our race is in 2 weeks and yes we are still doing it! But till then I am unsure what will happen.

God is in control I just wish I knew what He was doing in all this because nothing is going right and everything going wrong and I have no clue what is going on :(