A few years ago I looked like this. My hair was put in a silly fashion for the pic as was the expression on my face. Te he, ha ha. However a bad relationship, chronic drug and alcohol abuse, a distorted view of self, and an overall miserable state of mind is what, from my recollection, this pic reminds me of. I have the same job, live in the same place, have the same hobbies. I have "broke in" the wrestling business since this was taken, but that's mearly apart of my self, not the be all end all. What's changed for me in the last couple years was a slow methodical process to live in congruence with my self. It didn't take a big move, a fad diet, or a "fresh start". None of that works to be happy. It takes work. My self takes work-it is not a 'work'. It is not a gimmick. #tbt #omg #wtf #notawork #notagimmick #self