Okay
I was talking to a friend recently and she asked me how I was doing. I said.
"I'm doing okay."
Because that's about the right word. I used to say, "I'm doing good! Day's great, yeah yeah, awesome!" Which is a positive outlook, but may not always be the truth. Sometimes days were shitty, absolutely terrible, and downright disturbing. But naturally I said, "I'm doing good!"
So you may ask, why the shift in attitude? Well all shifts began with something.
I knew life wasn't completely on track in September, it wasn't where I wanted it to be at all. And after falling out of a relationship, losing a best friend, and making things completely weird in my general life, things were far less than good.
But these are all things that had to happen. As they did, and as I accepted them, and as I started cleaning things up in life, I realized that life was okay.
Life is okay. Nothing too amazingly special. Nothing too terrible. Life is okay.
I'm okay, and I'm okay with that. It's not a pessimistic stance, it's more of a realistic, accepting mentality. I can say it with a smile and you'll know I'm being honest, so if you do ask me how I'm doing and you're worried that I am absolutely spiraling down, I'll probably say,
"I'm okay."
