I just saw TWW S04E03 and I have a lot of feels. And I apologize in advance. Beware. Spoilers ahead.
First of all, RaqCass is a goddess. If she doesn't get awards, I will slap a bastard.
It's been 3 epis into the new season and we have yet to see Hecate outside. Apart from the woods near the school or something. It's like she doesn't know how to be free.
Indigo learned to transfer from Hecate. Fight me.
I think Hecate picked on Indie on that party, brought her to the lab to "punish" her, wink, wink but really, she was trying to tell Indie "Happy Birthday! Surprise, I have applied to be your guardian."
If Joy felt she wasn't wanted as a child, hence, going to the Ordinary world, etc. If no parents objected to her being imprisoned as a child, if she didn't really have good parent-models growing up. Imagine adult Hecate being *terrified* of the idea of being a parent. But her thinking it through, maybe talking it through with Ada. And going for it. Asking the Great Wizard, who she doesn't even like, for something so life-changing because she cared for Indie and she felt this was what Indie *needed*.
And after all these. When all is said and done after Indie was turned to stone. The people end up being pretty okay.
Indie gets her life back.
Ada and the Great Wizard have broken Hecate of her confinement; so they feel less guilt at the very least, I would imagine.
But Hecate. What does she have now?
She was sad, she wanted a friend; she ultimately lost that friend. She carried the guilt of Indie being turned to stone for so long. She lost 30 years of freedom and all that entails. (Pippa, etc). Then. Then, she dared put her heart at risk. Dared to hope that she can have a family with Indie. Didn't get that either.
And yet. And yet. The thing that really made me cry, was when she was granted guardianship and it was a bitter victory. Because she was allowed to be the guardian of someone else's child. Too late. She already did the most selfless thing a parent can do, which is put their child's welfare above their own.
There was never any anger in Hecate. Not an ounce of: "Why? It's not fair. I deserve better."
When she finally, finally got to say Happy Birthday, RaqCass allowed for a moment, a flitter of self-pity, then quickly buried it under pride, happiness that Indie and her daughter turned out to be nice, normal, loving, decent people. So selfless. So happy for Indie. Sad but not bitter, not angry. In fact, so *accepting* of her lot. After she says, "Happy Birthday, Indigo Moon", she looks around Ada's office. Her world. Her lot. And she accepts that.
And she shouldn't. Because she deserves the world. But she doesn't think she deserves anything, she has learned not to hope too much. She thinks the universe has already been kind to her. So she nods, and accepts and carries on.
