Not my Mind
i am absolutely tired of being the person i am. i am tired of being depressed, anxious, self isolated. i would like to live in a beautiful non-clouded fog in my head but that is simply not possible. the worst people bring out terrible things in me. i wish my anger was not like this and i would like to control it. there is no point in fighting, even myself. i am simply tired of living in a world that i was not supposed to be in. sometimes i ask if i was even supposed to be born. what exactly is my purpose? i have been trying to find it since the day i was told i do not matter, when i was young. i am and have been trying to better myself but i do not know anymore. should i give up? it seems as if i am slowly but i have not realized it till now, i am simply tired of living in my own mind.
