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stupid vent post which was meant to be a silly rant but i got kinda upset </3

im so genuinely anxious for no reason dude i need to stop trying to make nmew friends becausde socializing with people makes me genuinely nauseous. im so scared that im saying the wrong things doing the wrong things n that everybody hates me n its just strressful. i wish i could actually have normal relationships and normal friends but i think i scare people away by being too overbearing or maybe im just unlikeable soib emoji. the only person who stays actively talking to me is my partner n i love them dearly but i still just want to have normal friends n normal friendgroups like people should. ive never had friends that stayed for long if they weren't objectively bad people and making friends now is so draining and stressful because keeping them means to me i have to have a reason to make them stay something actually interesting about me in which i dont have.

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oh my god im so tired of my fucking family i just want to get out of this house. i need a job or something so i can fucking leave. nobody here actually gives a fuck

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cw mention of bugs n shit. im angry.

my sibling doesnt take my entomophobia seriously. there was a bug n i begged them to kill it n they sarcastically said back "cant you just get a cup n throw it outside" oh idk maybe ive already told you many times before i am deathly afraid of bugs and would prefer if i didn't have to tocuh it. proceeded to not kill it, let it crawl away and told me "its gone!" and went back to their room. and when we found it again they let it get under the cabinet and didn't even try any more. im not asking them a 3rd time to kill it ill just kill it myself i guess. i dont nkow. im actually really scared of bugs sob emoji

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idk cw cuz im ranting about my dad yelling and cussing out my nephew and his genuine fucking negligence <333 read after the break #notsofunfetzi

im so fucking tired of my dad like genuinely. all he ever fucking does is complain and yell and he wonders why we dont like him. my nephew is SIX and autistic and had an accident at a place he went to and now my dads fucking pissed and yelling and cussing like hes not a fucking child. i end up being more like a coparent to my nephew with my mom than he is an actual dad. my mom is chronically ill and he doesnt help at all he just sits around on his ass at his desk and wont even keep an eye on him. a while back my mom was at the hospital and my dad was "watching" him but it was just him sitting at his desk a room away while my nephew was alone in the living room crying. i hate this family and i hate my dad i just want him to be normal for once. we love him sometimes but he doesnt love us.