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my friend convinced me to listen to malevolent. finished season 2 today

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So like. We all know Johnny pops pills and drinks like dry ground but I haven't seen anyone really say anything about Johnny being pretty explicitly shown to shoot up. Like.

These bottles pop up in Never Fade Away during his argument with Alt. They're sorta oversized versions of the kind injected medication comes in (I know them at a glance bc my dad had diabetes and his insulin came in these). Whatever he's got he's dosing it via a needle and by the looks of the bottle it's prescription. I can only imagine the finnicky business of trying to prep a needle with a prosthetic that can most likely only feel at the fingertips if at all.

I guess my point is there's alot of possibilities related to this detail and I don't know if I've ever actually seen anyone acknowledge it. J was working with like 4 methods of substance abuse.

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I have a lot of 3d workers island feelings (mostly a strong aversion to making it supernatural the same way I do with petscop) but the easiest to express is um. People talk weird as fuck about Holland. How you gonna make a character easily interpreted as like 5 years old the secondary antagonist in a household with 3 abusive adults?

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Farkas! Should! Have stayed! A werewolf!

Imagine with me a moment, a version of the companions questline where the decision to forsake the beast blood is actually a huge deal. Where the beast blood is this endless nagging hunger to hunt and destroy that chews at you if you can't feed it. Where being in the Circle is not only a matter of membership to the club but tangible connection to their Patron Prince and the traditions of the Companions and each other.

Now imagine with me a version where Vilkas visibly struggles with the beast blood, growling and snapping and frightened, whereas Farkas takes to it like he was born for it, all sharp smiles and easy full moons and control. Curse and blessing. They don't understand, they were raised the same way, they're twins for fucks sake, but it just is.

And then one day Vilkas is told you don't have to do that anymore. You don't have to be this thing you were taught to be, have to suffer the way you've been taught to do. But you will always be separated from your brother. There will be this new, once thought impossible distance, and one day that distance with widen and you will be gone from each other for eternity.

And Farkas HATES it, he is miserable. He doesn't want to lose Vilkas, he doesn't want him to suffer, he doesn't want to purge his own wolf's blood. He's mad at Jergen and Kodlak and himself and Vilkas and Hircine and anyone or thing he could possibly blame. He wishes he could trade their wolves, that there was a way to make everyone happy.

But there isn't, Vilkas will be cured and Farkas will remain blessed and they will never be the same as before.

And now that decision matters.

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Found out Jacob Wysocki has a podcast where he watches fight club over and over for like 3 days and it drives him actually bonkers and initially I was like I can do that. I have done that (I have a vhs that I'd let run over and over and over for days when the antenna didn't work) but he also was not sleeping the entire time so now I imagine I would probably be much worse than he ended up.

Anyways it's called "I don't wanna talk about fight club anymore" and it's on Spotify.

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Martin should have been a Hermaeus Mora worshipper I think. His involvement with Sanguine is not a load-bearing fact its a complete whatever. You were a whore Martin it's fine. But tell me that guy was making deals with Mora and I am suddenly very concerned about him having the Xarxes.

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Last year I was home alone for a week that became 2 months and in that week I played The Walking Dead and had a million feelings about Kenny and Ben that I shared with my friends.

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I didn’t watch the original CritRole podcast I don’t plan to that is too much talking for too many hours for me to focus. But I do know a bit about it and lemme say as someone watching the show and who likes Scanlan a lot.

I feel bard’s lament hanging over my shoulder like a fucking wraith and I’m afraid.