I'm afraid of my life without you. I am. In 10 days I've fallen back into place I thought I'd never see again. And I don't think I've ever felt so alone. Everyone is trying to wrap their mind around that the fact that you're gone jjong. I don't want to. I don't ever want to let you go. When my heart starts racing for no reason I play diphylleia grayish to calm down. When my negative thoughts are taking over I find a blue night quote to help me. And when I just need a pick me up there's a dorky fan sign video somewhere. You are a regular, everyday part of my life. Then all of a sudden all of things that brought me comfort are causing me intense pain. I need you.. The thing is. I've needed someone else similarly before. And I think i know what to do. Kim jonghyun. I'll never let you part.. For your always, in my heart.. . . . . . . #Jonghyun #youdidwelljonghyun #nowitsmyturn