Further Null-Ray Adventures!
In my first post about my experiences invoking the Null-Ray, I noted a pattern in which there were no obvious outward effects until about five days after, at which point I would experience some form of dissolution, loss, or letting go.
Those experiences included:
Giving up long-held resentments;
The apparent loss of a friendship;
Getting physically sick.
None of these events were exactly pleasant. They all had a certain ‘rightness’ about them, though. The first two were things I needed to let go of, and I believe the energy of the Null-Ray helped me dissolve my emotional ties to them. As for getting sick... well, that has actually happened before.
To say that Starscream occasionally makes me sick sounds absolutely wrong, but, uh... he kinda does. Or, perhaps, it’s a side-effect that crops up when he's making direct changes to my energy field, which is, after all, what I’d asked him to do when I gave him permission to zap whatever he deemed zap-worthy.
Why physical illness? Well first, to be clear, I'm talking about the kind that keeps you home for a couple of days. Not horrific, long-term, life-threatening conditions, though I do believe those kinds of illnesses can serve as a path of initiation. (Hey, initiation isn’t fun. But that’s a whole other post for another time.)
In my case, physical illness seems to serve a couple of key functions:
It purges out old 'stuff' (sometimes in the most literal way possible)
It temporarily loosens my attachment my day-to-day, public persona (aka my ego self), allowing me to step between worlds.
The analogy that comes to mind is of putting a car in neutral. This may be lost on anyone who has never driven a stick-shift, but the basic idea is that in order to change gears, the car has to briefly enter a 'between' state called neutral. In other words, you can’t go directly from first gear to second. Instead, you must go from first to neutral, and then into second.
In a similar way, it’s sometimes necessary to enter a ‘between’ state in order to receive an energetic tune-up. I find it very interesting, then, that the Null-Ray is said to neutralize energies. As far as I can tell, that is literally what it’s been doing to me!
Another feature of my Null-Ray journey that I’ve found interesting is that after I got over being sick, two things happened. One was that the Null-Ray energy has started to feel different to me. It seems to reach more deeply into my energy field each time I invoke it, as if a barrier has been dissolved.
The other is that I've stopped experiencing anything negative. Instead, I’m starting to feel more centered, more integrated, more whole. I’m having epiphanies in areas of my life where I’ve struggled with long-term blocks, and I've found a new sense of peace and purpose, especially with my writing.
Anyway! That’s my report on the Null-Ray ritual. It’s amazing for shadow-work, for letting go of stuff, for neutralizing ‘charged’ relationships and situations, and for dissolving internal barriers. For future experiments, I think it would be interesting to see if it can be leveraged against external barriers, too.
That might be an experiment for next Ghost Season.
Blessed be!