Number 78
Prompt; “Hold me and never let me go.”
Pair: Minseok / Reader
Genre: Kinda angsty (this was written just when Minseok was enlisting and we were all having a crisis)
Word count: 529
So a little warning I guess... I cried my way through writing this. I’m sorry?
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You felt your heart break into a million pieces, Minseok’s words ringing through your head loud enough to drown out the sudden ringing in your ears. You knew it was coming, had known since you got together and with him turning 30 soon it was inevitable. But you still weren’t ready.
He was enlisting. And soon. You only had a couple of weeks left together before he had to leave.
“It’s only going to be 21 months,” Minseok said, voice sounding far away as you stared dumbly at your feet. You didn’t know what to say; what to do. You felt like crying but knew it would only hurt him more so you fought to hold the tears back.
“I know,” you mumbled, voice wobbly. “It’s not that long.” You didn’t even sound convincing to yourself. It would be 21 months of worrying and longing. It was a long time. You weren’t ready.
“It’s not like we won’t see each other at all,” he tried to soothe you, grabbing your hands in a gentle squeeze. “I get time off, you know. It won’t be that bad. It’s just like when I’m on tour, right? We’ve done that many times before.”
You nodded but you weren’t buying it. When he was on tour you knew he was safe. He was with his boys, his company. He was safe. With this you would have no idea. You’d heard stories, most of them probably horribly exaggerated but every single one of the horror scenarios was running through your mind. The lump in your throat grew and your eyes had begun to sting.
“Y/N, look at me please,” Minseok begged, leaning down a little to try and look you in the eyes. “Say something.”
If you tried to speak you would only start crying, so you just shook your head, biting your lip. Your vision had begun to get blurry as tears threatened to spill but you didn’t want to cry in front of him.
“Baby please.” Minseok sounded close to crying as well and that was the last straw. You let out a sob and let the tears fall, falling forward into his arms as you cried.
“I’m sorry,” you cried. “I know it’s not your fault, but I don’t want you to leave.”
You could feel him shaking slightly as he hugged you tightly and you felt horrible for making him cry as well. But you weren’t strong enough. You were going to miss him too much.
He kept mumbling soothing words into your hair, voice breaking every now and then which only made you cry harder. You clung to him desperately until you finally started to calm down, your sobs turning to sniffles. You didn’t let go though, wouldn’t until they would have to pry you away from him.
“I’m sorry,” he mumbled. “I’ll be home before you know it. I promise. The boys have promised to look out for you. Go to them if you can’t reach me, okay? I need to know you’re taken care of as well.”
You nodded, sniffling pathetically into his shirt. “Just hold me please,” you whispered. “Hold me and never let me go.”
