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[ohheyskywalker]

Why I’ve been MIA

Well as you know from my post the other day, it was Lucas’ FIRST birthday today... and I’ve been looking forward to and dreading the day for ages.

Over the past month or so, I’ve been crazy planning Lucas’ birthday party, I needed it to be perfect, not only for him but also for me and Matthew as it’s a pretty significant day for all of us.

This time last year (well not exactly at this time because Lucas was born at 8am on the 9th but it sounds better than yesterday last year...) we were two young 20 and 22 year olds not knowing at all what we were getting ourselves into. Going through labor together was such a significant point of our lives, a turning point for us most definitely. 

We’ve spent 365 days growing together as a family. Our miracle baby boy, the only one to ever survive my uterus, has been earthside for 365 days and I have lived 365 days more than we thought I would this time last year, thank goodness.

I’m so thankful for my baby boy, for Matthew and for just being here. I’m so glad I’ve been knee deep planning the perfect first birthday for my son because 1. My son was here to celebrate his first birthday and 2. I was here to celebrate his first birthday.

So yes, over the past month or so, everything other than making sure my son had the perfect birthday went on the back burner, but I’m back now, carrying on one day at a time with my little bitty blog to help along the way.

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Lucas is one on Sunday, I repeat... Lucas is ONE on SUNDAY. What the heck.

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I’ve spent a lot of time recently wondering if I am happy with where I am in life.

The two things I KNOW for sure I am happy with is Lucas and Matt, nothing about those two upset me at all, but, everything else seems to be upsetting for me?

I’m not qualified in anything, I want to study but S.I.T never gets back to me with any questions I have so far so I doubt they’ll support me while studying, so it’s kinda put me off studying there.

I’m happy with where I live, but, I want to own my own place, then at the same time I want to travel.

I really want to help provide for our family, but, I don’t want to be away from Lucas so I want to find a way to work from home, to do something I can do while I am with him, I just don’t know what.

For now, I know that I need to appreciate the time I have with Lucas as it won’t last forever, and he is my last biological child (adoption is still a possibility) and the little baby cuddles won’t last forever, but neither will I, so I want to start doing something with my life.

Being an adult is hard.

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Finally - with little to no work from me actually - we're back into a good night time routine. For some reason for a few weeks, Lucas decided to nap from anywhere between 5pm - 8pm no matter what I did! Even if he woke up at 8am that morning. Which meant bedtime wasn't until 11pm if we were lucky! But three days ago Lucas decided to go to bed at 7.30p and sleep till 7.30am so I'm finally back into the swing of things! My partner and I even got to play a full game of Monopoly two nights in a row!!! (Any tips for how to win, I seem to keep losing...) My goal now is to get him to have his naps during the day in his cot instead of on me. Unfortunately during his wacky weeks of weird sleep I gave in to letting him sleep on me during the day so I could have a rest and now when I try put him down he wakes up. So if you've got any tips or tricks I'd be keen to hear them so I can get my couple of hours TV blobbing/house work/present wrapping time back!

[ohheyskywalker]

Dear my child's future present buyers

Please don’t ask him what he wants for present giving occasions, ask him things he likes.

I want to teach my child the art of gift giving - receiving a gift out of the goodness of someone’s heart. I don’t want him to think if he asks he gets. I want him to appreciate that someone has bought him something instead of nothing. I want the things he wants to be extra special when he does get them.

I’m not saying don’t ever get my child something he asks for, just don’t do it every single time because trust me, if you get him exactly what he wants every time the one time you don’t you’ll see that look of disappointment in his eyes and that will upset you too.

Please don’t think I don’t appreciate you wanting to get my child everything he wants - I wish I could do that too… But for many reasons its not always possible for me, for his grandparents or for his friends. Please, just bare this in mind when buying gifts for someone.

So please, find something you believe my child will like or enjoy. Expose him to new things he didn’t think he’d like! Help me help my child realize that sometimes you don’t get exactly what you want but that you can make the best out of what you’re given.

[ohheyskywalker]

Sorry I’ve been MIA lately! I’ve just not had much to blog about recently.

I’m currently trying to figure out a way I can be creative and make some money. I’ve been gathering everything i need for my application for tech and hanging out at home with Lucas.

I’m hoping to do a full on blog post over the next few days - for the first time in a week Lucas is in bed before 11pm so I’m getting my time back.

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Woke up at 4am feeling pretty crappy - tried to sleep on and off until 5.30 when my partner leaves for work. As he came in to kiss me goodbye I felt something wasn't right so asked him to stay home and sure enough 6am and I've started vomiting, waaaah. So Mummas, hit me with some good easy food I can try to eat as I'm still Breastfeeding my little dude. Has anyone had a vomiting bug while breastfeeding before and had to throw up while feeding? I'm kinda worried about that and how to go about it, obviously I can't just throw my son on the floor and run...so any ideas with that will be helpful too!

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Well! My life is starting to look much better! My little family has finally found a way to have a lot more money, perfect timing since Lucas' birthday is coming up in August. So much less stress!!!!!