A May Day Parade contribution except again I had no time to write ahead of time, so have some excerpts from a Once and Future Court LARP character sheet.
A memory that might be a fantasy or might have been a dream: Helping hands fussed with your clothes, once, and a crown glittered on your brow. All eyes turned your way, gazes and hearts alike. Men quested and fought and swooned for a word, a glance, a touch of your hand or a strand of your hair. You reigned over a court of admirers with an indulgent smile.
A false sister usurped your place then, too, from a false-hearted father. And your easily-swayed husband, abandoning you, replacing you just like that. A besotted knight and his besotted comrade spiriting you away—for love, they said, all for love. How many times must you hear it? From how many untrue lips?
Wearing a crown means you can trust no one. They all want something from you, and none of them know you. Love professed at first sight, and valiant deeds to prove it, and you know: you are only a symbol. A prize to be won, or a star to reach for. Nothing real.
Yet you are lonely. You want to believe the fervent expressions of desire, love, fealty, friendships. Perhaps a test. A show of cruelty, a moment of grace, and they dance on your strings. Another test. Ah—he failed, again, as badly as your father and worse. Ah—but it was a mistake, a curse, sorcery or a potion, not in his right mind. Of course. Of course he wasn't. And you were only joking when you spoke cruelly enough that he sought his own death. All a misunderstanding.