Looks like I'm drinking another cup of coffee, staying up and rereading The Host, seeing how much me and my man are in O'Wanda.
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Looks like I'm drinking another cup of coffee, staying up and rereading The Host, seeing how much me and my man are in O'Wanda.
You know what's so funny?
I read the twilight saga in middle school, and when it got to the baby plot, naive unexperienced child that I was, I thought it was very pro-choice of Bella to know all the risks of her pregnancy and still go though with it in the face of opposition. I was like, "Yeah, that's what pro-choice is, your choice, and this is a pregnancy plot. Of course, she'd choose the baby?? That's just what people do in pregnancy plots??"
Like, it did not at all occure to me steph was virtue signaling that keeping the baby in the face of your own death was the "proper or correct" thing to do, just that that was the plot of the story she was writing, and I knew Balla had plot armor so there was no real risk,,,
In the same vein, reading the Host, I thought it was cool that Wanda knew she was a woman, even as a sexless worm. Like I always though it was very, I don't know, just, "I've tried everything in eight different planets and know what my gender orientation is, even if that might in some definition be cisgender. And I'm only bringing it up cause we're having an argument, and you're all being weird about it." of Wanda to have been to eight planets, that you can't tell me all had proper equivalent to human male and female- especially when the Dolphin planet had three sexes and polyamory- and always have a preference for a certain type of gender orientation known for herself.
Like as an adult, I get Balla was being a pro-life mouth piece even though that girl totally would have driven her friends to seattle for a secret abortion in the middle of the night no questions asked until steph needed it be her, and Wanda was probably being,,,, well she's probably Cis in the oddest of definitions, but you can't tell me Wanda would ever be transphobic. Sorry steph, but when you creat a world of sexless worms who can express gender-oriented preferences, and still be put it in whatever body their healers have avalable, and it's a perfect utopia,,,, you can't tell me there wasn't hella trans souls wandering around on every planet. Or you know, non-binary souls who have never understood gender on a single planet they've ever been to.
Or souls who's host were trans/transitioning, and just went with it.
But it's just so funny I managed to read her conservative propaganda and go. "Yeah yeah yeah, pro-choice and freedom of gender expression, ofc ofc" for yeeeaaaars
After a few minutes, I saw a bright, familiar sign in the distance. I took a deep breath and wiped my eyes clear.
"Ian, could you do me a favor?"
"Anything you want."
"I want fast food."
To me, this was a sort of a last meal - the final gift to the condemned.
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re-read The Host by Stephenie Meyer and it still slapped just like when i read it in high school (even though i am now painfully aware of the book’s flaws as a 24yo agh) i always loved ian o’shea and i’m glad to see he still holds up <3 got the post book depression now lol open to chatting about the host :)
*okay but it was also so nice to read adult fiction so i didn’t have to worry about age but then i DID have to worry about age when smeyer wrote in the 17yo and 26yo relationship and also put wanda in a 16yo body UGH
Ian O’Shea and Wanda
MOVIE COUPLES
I've been thinking a lot on Ian and Wanda from the host and I think I know why they appeal so much. At least to me personally. I love them because they really do love one another as who they are. Like individually. It's not about looks. It's not even about species. It's legit just a whole ass human dude who fell in love with this alien soul. Who told him stories of different worlds she had been in. He saw how kind she was. Adventurous. How she didn't want to harm anyone. Ian O'Shea legitimately fell in love with Wanda for who she was as a person. And I think the people who ship them might ship them because there's something beautiful about someone being in love with another for who they are as a whole. I don't know. Just random musings as I contemplate one of my otps. Ian knew what he wanted and was willing to fight for it. I also want to say that the fact that he saw Wanda as an enemy at first is also interesting. We love that character growth.
“Eight full lives,” I whispered against his jaw, my voice breaking. “Eight full lives and I never found anyone I would stay on a planet for, anyone I would follow when they left. I never found a partner. Why now? Why you? You’re not of my species. How can you be my partner?”
“It’s a strange universe,” he murmured.
with my whole soul, i love you // g.h.m.