#occludedus

[genderwitchbitch]

occludedus replied to your post: .

sometimes i go thru those old writings i have and just .-. thinkin of you <3

<3 <3 *hugs*

[floatinginoceans]

"Dear future me," :)

Dear future me;

oh man I hope you have shit figured out. (im assuming years in the future not like a week)

currently it is late at night and i am staying up for no reason when its going to make me tired tmrw and probably give ammo to the people that live in the house with me to say "well you stayed up last night" when i say im tired or stressed or otherwise

and i have so much hmw due because i left it last minute like the dummy i always am

so like i really hope you have shit figured out

even a little more

and are more organized

and feel more better

and function properly

and that things have gotten better or do get better

and youre reading this with softness and compassion and thinking - with reality to back it up - "oh hun, its going to be okay soon/eventually. it will all be okay you have no idea. i am so proud you/i kept going. so hang in there it really does get better"

i hope more than anything that is what will happen in the future

further down the road

i hope i am still alive

i hope i am okay

i hope that its worth it... that there really is meaning and purpose to life and that there is hope

[lilbugbiggarden]

Sleep update: 15/18 hours

[genderwitchbitch]

occludedus replied to your post: Read More →Read More Now!

i hope u know how good/strong it is that u can feel dissociation/depression and call it by what it is so quickly - learning to do that has been so valuable to me

Thank ye :))) <3 learning how to identify what I'm feeling has been so so so so important and it's one thing that treatment did reaaaaally well

[urkraft]

occludedus replied to your post “Who wants to bring me pumpkin spice lattes? I will serenade you”

i got doug to try my pumpkin espresso soy latte today it was p monumental

Please proceed directly to my place of residence with one of the aforementioned beverages thank you

[genderwitchbitch]

occludedus said: i wish i remembered more about the tulane psych that fucked me up a whole lot so i could tell u to avoid him! but my memory is gone and i have never met a psychiatrist i can trust anyway so just…good luck </3

was it Dr Potash because I went to him during my freshman year and he was fucking awful

[urkraft]

occludedus replied to your post “My new undies/shirt/beanie from Topman arrived, and I bought some nail...”

lets have a spa day sometime

I'm SO down

[lilbugbiggarden]

i am at the point where i really need to talk to someone-- just to hear their voice-- (its not drastic, i just need to know that i'm not alone. there is someoen i want to call, but i'm afraid of waking them and others up)