Im a bad writer so pardon me but
What I would give to be able to pick you apart. Id start with how your brain functions, of course. I need you alive for that. Making you talk about yourself for hours. Tracking what trips you up, what makes you squirm. Learning what makes you tic, what makes you fold, what makes you, you. Id then start putting you under different conditions. Like an experiment.
Id have my assumption. Whats I think youll do. How I think youll react. What I think youll say. See if my predictions are correct. If they arent, we go back to my flowchart. Ask more questions, more at more things, tweak it to see if I can get an accurate reading on you. Once I can accurately predict behavior is when the real fun starts.
Ill put you in worse & worse condition, strip away different parts of you, different supports, add traumatizing things to the mix. I want to see what about you changes. What stays the same. How you change. I want to see if I can predict the changes I will see. Ill take your friends, your family, make you entirely dependent on me. Cut you off from everyone. God how I love a good mind game. Once I strip so much of you that you’re barely a husk of who you used to be Ill slaughter you. Humanely.
Straight through your medulla. Or perhaps even snap c3. I don’t want to torture you. I don’t want you to suffer, my baby doesn’t deserve to be in pain. Id butcher you of course. Such a beautiful thing deserves every last inch of them to be used. That much is basic respect. Ill harvest your organs, gush at how absolutely perfect & textbook they look. Gush at any imperfection I find. Because of course you just have to be special in every way anyone can be. Mind, body, and soul.
Im not gonna lie, I may not know how to properly portion meat. I don’t know how to properly butcher an animal like that, but I do know people that do. Many would be willing to help me. I would get to show them how perfect you are. Id make sure they’re so careful with you. I don’t want anything damaged. I would want to keep wet specimens of you. Id love to admire you sitting on my shelf. Id make new strings out of your vocal cords if I could figure out a way to spare them. I would have to be so delicate. So careful with you. Or maybe your intestines if I cant figure out how to properly extract them. Vocal cords are so very delicate my love.
Once we had gotten everything I want out of you Id make sure to properly treat your bones. Extract your teeth. Make a few pairs of earrings. A necklace or two. A pendant. A bracelet. Make sure to have a piece of you with me at all times. Id make you into decor, carve you into tools like they do deer antlers if I could figure put how to. Id spare a bone or two for cooking. Just so I could know what your marrow would taste like. I bet it would be heaven sweetie. You would look so beautiful baby. I cant wait. 🩷🩸
