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I really love these two.

I have some GITM thoughts below the break, spoiler warning if aren't caught up!

GITM au and characters belong to @venomous-qwille !

Fool has as per usual been occupying a lot of my ponderings, but honestly so has Clip, and I've really loved seeing more of who he is, how he thinks, what he values.

I've been wondering if after Clip saves Fool from the Scary Arcade Cabinet's clutches, that Clip is bound to Fool in a similar fashion to Cricket, if not a stronger and more lasting way? There also seemed to be little clues to Fool's newfound awareness of supernatural presence in Ch18 what with the 'not sure if he was talking to Cricket or the carousel itself, his general skittishness, seemingly talking to nothing or at nothing. Maybe I'm overthinking but there even seemed to be a shift in his eneral attitude towards the carousel since his possession by Clip, experiencing Sight because of him, and post Clip rescuing him. He seemed very proud of the carousel and the other contents of the shed, eagar to show and impress Cricket, maybe even to comfort them with elements of their past that they they seemed found of, while he is considerably more impatient with it in this one, and if the machines Harry kept really do 'just do that sometimes,' they would have been doing it since Fool's arrival, with what has changed being his understanding of why. Cricket repeatedly notes the miasma and the tastes and feelings surrounding it as well when Fool comments or reacts to it, shuts it off or on, etc. Idk, I just liked the idea that while Cricket didn't realize it, Fool was seeing the same stuff.

I wonder if it's due to Clip's continued residence in his body or if it's something Clip left him with as a result of whatever he did to rescue Fool but, idk. Either way, I really liked that and I have come to really adore their dynamic more than I could have predicted. I thought their spooky, flirty (amazingly written too oughhh) first meeting was so much fun and so interesting but the development of their friendship even if by necessity and shared care for Cricket...idk, I see you gentle ghost Clip..what a sweetheart.

I also wonder if Fool's cagey behavior surrounding his injuries were less unwillingness to be vulnerable with Cricket and more a hesitation in case seeing the damage or connecting it to the supernatural, even directly being told about it would evoke a similar reaction as the 'Don't Forget the Ghost in the Machine' inked on their arm, and resulting harm that strain on the 'veil' caused. IDK. I like the idea/wonder if Clip is even telling Fool to be careful not to stress Cricket's sight out, as if he really is hiding things for this reason, he likely wouldn't have known to be so careful without consultation from Clip.

I think another thing that continues to strike me and that I really adore dynamic wise with all the bots is Fool's striking maturity. His altruism, his integrity, his emotional maturity...when I first started reading his wit and charm was funny and refreshing and so so enjoyable, but every moment and every glance at what he's doing and thinking and feeling, the lengths he will go to consider the members of the house despite the forced nature of their relationships and the view of himself by the rest as the comic relief more than anything else...idk it breaks my heart, really really does. In a way, the bots so far almost opperate on a continuum of their own awareness of their situation and how well adjusted they are/how maturely they are handling things, with Fool in many ways at the top (not that all his mechanisms ((pun intended)) are healthy, but much more self aware and considerate), and Sol at the bottom, being the most complacent in his own lack of identity and peace, the most unable/willing to acknowledge his place in things, and Misuta and Spot toggling in between.

Anyhow! Sorry for the big old page stretcher but I had to verbalize my ponderings and I hope they're at least a bit enjoyable! :D

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Thoughts on Soleil and Fool (of which there are many. in my brain. constantly.)

Alright so this isn't the most elegant or pretty way to get these thoughts out but I decided to make it its own post.

!!! Heads up rn that this will reference multiple chapters and instances from the GITM au fic, so if you are not caught up, I don't advise reading this !!!

@venomous-qwille 's response to the ask on which characters would fall hardest and fastest for the narrator were they to all meet at once reinvigorated some feelings about Sol and Fool, specifically relating to the way they act as foils for each other.

I was a bit surprised, and honestly, I'm a bit surprised that I was surprised, that Fool is actually only one placement up from Sol in this thought experiment of readiness to fall, and honestly? I love it. It works. To me, Sol and Fool have acted throughout the work so far as foils for each other. They do not enjoy each other's company, though Sol doesn't enjoy company in general....or perhaps...doesn't feel worthy of it....and projects his own guilt and self loathing onto everyone around him-

I digress. One of the biggest clues to the dynamic set up by Sol and Fool, but also the others, is through their language. Obviously, Sol, Misuta, and Spot have tight language restrictions given their line of work previous to the story, while Fool was in a roll that encourages, but also demands, an elegant, expansive knowledge and usage of language as means to entertain.

Sol specifically, is an entity of few words, and when he does speak, he is always noted to be careful, selective, guarded with his words. Any time his carefulness of speech is pointed out it reminds me of the very beginning of The Giver, by Lois Lowry, where Jonas corrects his fear for the word 'apprehensive' instead. "No, wrong word, he thought," and "precision of language please," come to mind. Silly comparison I know, but it's all so deliberate with him.

Fool seems to be able to, and to actively say, whatever the hell he wants, constantly quipping and suggesting and making innuendos (always make me laugh, especially when directed at Clip). But what seems so effortlessly sincere for Fool is also just his design, perhaps even what he relies on, especially given that he does act very flirtatiously towards Clip during his impromptu interrogation.

Furthermore, the fact that Fool is able to say so much and yet convey so little about how he is feeling is so stunning, especially when Sol's silence is so damn telling. It seems that even Spot and Misuta are a bit jealous, even if disapproving, of the way Fool is able to speak, knowing full well that were they ever to feel the way Fool implies that he does through his...*ahem* rather scandalous phrasing, they couldn't, physically, ever voice that in a way they'd like. But too, given that he says things like that all the time, when he has something serious to say, it seems to be written off by the others as yet another joke or trick. Even Cricket is confused by Fools lack of punchline at times.

It hurts all the more seeing how deeply Fool wants to connect with his found family through game nights or finally getting company in his garage, even the way he helps Misuta have fun with DDR and gives him genuine competition...there's such palpable love there.

Sol, without saying almost anything at all though, conveys all the hurt and isolation and self loathing in the world. His silence and control say everything. He does care, I think, and that's exactly why he tries so hard to stay quiet and unseen and helpful for everyone else's sake, even if he is a raging ass, while Fool can barely seem to convey anything he means with it being received properly even with his fanciful words.

I know thats a lot lol, but for anyone who wants, hit me up with some discourse yeah? I've been dying to hear from other people about all this!

edit: thought it'd be funny to share that I'm typing this instead of studying buffers and titrations lmao, wish me luck on my chem midterm ig :,3

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I have some big stuff planned, but im so so busy, please bear with me my friends, plz enjoy some updates :,3

Hello anyone who sees my blog consistently and cares about the stuff on it!I wanted to give a little update, because I value you, my wonderful new friends, and because I promise I am working on cool stuff, it is just taking so long and I am so very sorry.

some oddstar lore: so I go to college, as many of you may know, and for my major I am taking a lot of chemistry and calculus this year, which is thankfully nearly over (I only have too more weeks until summer, yippee!) but my school is on a quarter system, so even though I just finished more midterms, my finals are also in two weeks, on june 8th. both of them. I'm testing in chem from 8am-10:50, and then from 11:30-2:30.

here are some of the sketches for my upcoming project:

I wanted to share that for my upcoming animatic, I'll be doing From the Start, with a Misuta/Misool focus. I'm really excited and will be working on it any chance I get, but I also have to keep studying unfortunately, so it may be a bit before I finish. Hopefully the wait pays off :,)

Of course, the characters and au of GITM belong to @venomous-qwille

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Found this and immediately thought of Sol

Soggy napkin man AND pretty boy? Maybe a lover of glitter glue at some point in his Shakespearean tragedy of an existence?

Idk lol

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working on my OC's a little today. Pip is the little clown and Zara is the cat. Hoping to have one more that's likely to be a rabbit called Patches. The humanoid one is a healthcare bot who would much prefer to live by the sea. Kass is here too, but just some cleaner lineart. More Kass and friends lore below :3

Kasimir: Kass himself is a robot, who's design is loosely based on a porcelain clown. Kass was built by a rather eccentric scientist, who's desire to understand consciousness and the human mind drove him experiment with creating life himself, though not in a lab like many of his peers. The doctor in many ways was creating a child, instilling in Kass an intense curiosity and drive to understand the world around him, opting to program some things and teach other things, through his advanced learning AI, post creation. Kass enjoys reading and brought up on classic novelists and playwrights, largely due to the doctor's own love for these things. Kass's programming includes knowledge on neurology and neurophysics. While Kass does not realize it, it is intended for him to carry on the doctor's legacy once he is gone. Kass ultimately starts out with little to no sentience, and gradually comes into himself. Will I develop this further? Yeah hopefully!! Maybe I'll go a comic or even short story route but we'll see!

Traits: Kass is inquisitive, exuberant, and quick-witted, but becomes a bit caustic over time. He is loyal, hard working, analytical and sarcastic. He struggles deeply with his sense of self, has strong tendencies for mimicry, and can be volatile and overbearing at times. Older sib complex.

Kass's creator does not currently have a name, but is a physicist himself who commissioned most of Kass's construction through an outside robotics company, though most work on Kass's AI was done via the doctor himself.

Patches, Pip, and Zara: these are some tinkered bots that came after Kass, are not as sophisticated, and were constructed by the doctor and a close friend of his. They have very basic AI compared to Kass, and cannot speak. They are rather small, and much more doll-like. Kass regards them as family, and while easily becomes frustrated with them at times, would do anything to ensure their safety. They are similar to Kass's siblings. I have yet to develop them further. Their colors are not set in stone either.

SerpentSvn-CB3 (also called SS-CB3) is the model of the healthcare bot. He does not yet have a name, but is something he will chose for himself in time.

SS-CB3 Traits: kind, patient and reserved. humanoid appearance for the ease of patients, softer silicon over much of the exoskeleton, especially the face, hands, forearms. He has always been drawn to water and animals, being outside.

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Stupid little ramble bc it's my art blog and I get to choose when there's actually art being posted hehe

I am so stuckkkk and art blocked and it's not for shortage of ideas it's because I want them all just so and it's eating me alive

I've been working on my Misuta pmv forever and it's progressing and I really love it but it's so much of a commitment and it stresses me out so much to start working on it on a given day and I'm running out of summer time ahh

anyway

I promie I'm doing arts. art is being done. just slowly. and with like way too much trepidation lol.

I have some other ideas too and I want to do something with them so bad but my brain!!! It's like no if you don't finish the other things first then you will be Doomed!!! Brother doomed by what exactly??? Idk lol.

Anyway send thoughts and prayers to get that pmv done and let me work on some Sol and some ISAT projects that I want to do too :p

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Some oddstar lore for anyone interested ~

I'm sure it's fairly obvious that I really like to draw dancing scenes based on my GITM animatics, but I thought it'd be funny to share that in high school I was in a program called IB (advanced classes + an extra diploma basically) and we had to take a fine art.

I wasn't told we had visual arts and was put in IB dance without input, I did fine in the class, but did not pass the exam (still got my IB diploma and credits from everything else, fret not) but yeah. I love to draw dancing, it makes me so happy, I even enjoyed some of our dances (personal favorite was one that my class did for Time Warp from The Rocky Horror Picture Show, I love Latin American dance and am acceptable at it but.... Can I do the things I draw? Can I dance all pretty? Can I dance as impressively as what I assume an 8ft robot jester could do? Hell no lol :')