ODELIA KRAMER: I'M HERE. DON'T FORGET THAT. he hasn't. he can't. john understands that odelia has chosen him in many ways, that she stays with him because she knows that he's hurting - that he'll never stop hurting, not as long as he lived ( which would not be much longer ). he also hasn't forgotten that he has a child, despite having lost one, too. odelia has to stand by and watch as her father pulls further and further away from her, without meaning to. leaving jill hadn't been easy, but he thought it necessary. he was intentional in building a wall between them. with odelia, he simply doesn't know how to undo what has already been done with her. loving her didn't seem like enough, but john didn't know how to give anything else, anymore. when he looks at his daughter, he sees so much potential. he sees a life she should be living outside of this path she's choosing. but he can't tell her to go. so if he can't push her any further, but she can't pull her any closer - how long was it, now, before she made the choice for him? 'i know you are, delia,' john says softly, milky eyes meeting her youthful ones, and he tries to portray what he can't say aloud through his stare. 'that's more than i can say for anyone else. even your mother,' @roseguided.