Okay, i just listened to mag 115, and i have some thoughts about Helen. I think it's mostly just gonna be an addition to my mind theory, but i just want to put my thoughts somewhere.
So the Distortion is Helen now. But at the same time, not really. It's not Helen Richardson, just like it wasn't Michael Shelley. And - i think this is important to remember - this is not a new person. It's still the same creature that just became someone else. Honestly, i love thinking about this. I love how impossible it sounds - while somehow making perfect sense to me.
Helen is still disoriented. The Distortion has to adapt to this new mind, just like it probably had to get used to Michael Shelley's mind. And here's the tragedy of the Distortion: It still feels wrong. It feels like who it is isn't what it is. It feels like it wasn't supposed to become this. Again. The Spiral still inflicts its worst suffering onto its own servant - because contradiction is still the very nature of the Distortion. It can never feel at peace with itself. It can never simply and clearly be itself.
So i've already talked about why being Michael felt wrong on here. But being Helen seems to feel wrong on a new level: The Distortion suddenly doesn't like killing anymore. Looks like a conscience came with Helen's mind, and the Distortion doesn't know how to deal with that. Despite its conflicting identity, it has apparently never had a problem with morality. Which is weird because it makes me wonder: Did Michael's mind not have that sense of morality? I mean, if the Distortion had already experienced this problem before, it would have said that, right? But no, seems like this is why being Helen feels wrong in a way that being Michael didn't. (Makes you wonder if that sweet boy really was that innocent, huh?)