#old3dbitch

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Hhahahhaha. Having bulimia, i find the hysterical. My mind is fucked.

[imafatmannnnnnnn]

Hi. I have been absent. Life is mess. Trying to just, do life but I dont want to. I want to sit. And do nothing. And that helps nothing. For those who keep listening and following and checking in, thank you. This world can be so lonely and isolating. I am grateful for you.

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I need sleep. Like a week of solid sleep. Was sleeping beauty's life so bad? Sleeping. All the time. Sounds amazing right now. I wish I could be tired and fall asleep quick so I could have a nap. Instead ill lay there and by the time sleep hits I need to get up bc of whatever. Sleep.

[imafatmannnnnnnn]

Tw ed talk

Yup back at 151.4 this morning. Starvation and omad it is but I prove over and over and over again I cant eat like a "normal" human being

[imafatmannnnnnnn]

Alright friends. I need your help. Please send me your funniest memes. I really need help to make it through this days. And please reblog to get the word out. I appreciate it.

@backonmyb-s @deadfern0 @jesusaintreal @bonelessratzz @codenamejustine @slay37

I would tag more but my brain is rotten. I'm sure I'll add on later.

[imafatmannnnnnnn]

TW! Ed and Mia talk.

Every day now I binge and purged. I hate it. Yesterday I wanted ice cream. But I knew I could not safely eat it. I had the mental battle of go home. Make a salad. Make a smoothie. But I didnt.

Its embarrassing to waste money on food i am going to eat until I am sick only to just throw it up.

I fear itll get worse. That i wont be able to stop. That i will, not joking very serious here, go broke from binging and purging.

I remember when I was in treatment for Mia in my 20s. And having to fight the urges to binge and purge. The mental battle and strength it took.

Fuck!

[imafatmannnnnnnn]

How did my tumblr stop following your tumblr???? I just noticed the lil "follow" button next to your name 😭

I swear Tumblr has a mind of its own. But I also just had some major life changes and havent been on here much so maybe it was like, we will make you pay for your absences?!!!

Either way, my pants that use to be loose are tight but my scale says I lost wt? So like the dysfunctional human i am I moved my scale all over the room to see if id get the same reading and I did so I am really besides myself in confusion and I cant look in the mirror to decide bc when I look in the mirror I can be skinny then blink and be fat so idfk.

Love you!

[imafatmannnnnnnn]

have you hugged a tree today?