Hello everyone who has stumbled across my blog. I want to be very clear here. I have an ED, i do support and encourage recovery and i am in therapy myself for my ED.
This road is a journey and I turn to Tumblr when I start gaining to much. It's unhealthy. I am in therapy. And therapy is a process. Please be kind. Minors, please don't interact unless you need help finding treatment. It makes me feel uncomfortable otherwise.
About me
5'5"
HW unknown 180ish? actually might of been 200
SW 173 11/21/2023
CW
150 10/7/2025
160 11/8/25
160 12/24/2025
170.6 3/30/2026 welcome to my ED dysfunction. Get help. Better then this madness.
? 5/5/2026 over 170. After already going up a size, the size up pants are tight which means plus size is next. Put the scale away bc my kids are making their weight a thing, not my doing, POS ex and his family doing. It really sucks. I want to be a healthy example of food and exercise yet I struggle. So though I dont say anything my kids see my struggle. And my struggle is not limited to just ED stuff. Hence the therapy. Maybe someday.
Lw recorded (this time round) 145.4!!!!!! 6/1/24 and bc i want to show this madness 142.4 6/3/25. 1 year of madness only lost 3 pounds. But I didn't gain which is huge for my BED.
LW unknown 120/130ish?
GW normal 149 I'd love lower but I'd love to be normal fear I won't make it. My routine is I gain too much. I restrict. I loose. Then I start to gain again. Anywhere from a 10 to 15 pounds cycle. And with every restrict. I gain more with every binge. Went from the 150s, to 160s, to now the 170s. I hope one day, I will recover and that I will have a normal wt too.
I need an in-between GW. So..... PSA I did reach GW1 and GW2 but I went back up to 160, ehhh now 170 something. If you are here thinking you want to try this ED stuff to loose weight. Get help. Its not worth it.
GW1: 159
GW2: 149
GW3: 139
I have only been diagnosed with bulimia but if i put my struggles in terms we understand, this is it....... I struggle primarily with bed. Atypical Ana. Past Mia, oh shit its coming back fml. Past orthorexic. (I wish I had that one permanently. Sigh. Maybe I need to read my triggering book.....)
Active May 2026
I'm old. 41 old.
I BLOCK TROLLS!
As for myself, i dont give a shit what you are as long as you are a nice human but for those whom care, I identify as she/her. And I'd change my blog to imafathuman but I'm known as imafatman and have become attached to it.
