an actual e-mail I sent; of course no response. it’s only to be expected from someone like him.
in order to keep the privacy of others some names have been redacted
L**o,
The amount of times i've listened to you complain, yell, cry about this girl I can't even count. A few days after your birthday (2020) from a different number I texted you "happy birthday - from the girl that ruined you" and you knew exactly who i meant and it pissed you off and started another huge fight. I felt like I needed to reach you and that was the only way I knew how (SICK I KNOW, that’s where I was mentally.) This girl lied, cheated, manipulated you and took away your self worth only months before I met you in 2012. Only years later would I find out only half of what she did to you while she was away in college. I am absolutely stunned that you would go back or give her the time of day to someone who abused you physically, mentally, and of course lets not forget emotionally. It makes me think that you and your meal ticket are over, you don't' have me anymore - can you really not be alone by yourself?? I remember when she hit you up "to grab a beer" a couple of years ago and you told her to fuck off- what's changed? You need someone that badly? You'd rather go back to someone who did in fact ruin you rather than talk to me about everything we have gone through in the last year, at least an apology. I don't expect anything to go back to "normal" but if we had a conversation to help me understand I would never bother you again; the way she continues to pop back in your life regardless if she moves out of state or is dating someone married in the army or whatever she did. It makes me sad that you're so willing to accept any kind of love or treatment because you're scared- idk of what but I know you are. I know I loved you and I really thought we were getting it right towards the end of 2019 & it's why the whole meal ticket situation hurt so bad. Has it taken you 8 years to forgive her, or do you not want to be alone? Will it take you 8 years to speak to me again?Why will you talk and eat pizza with her but can't be bothered with me- someone who you actually loved not just put up with? ...
I suppose you need the chaos and the hell of it all to feel something huh.
