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Cold Love

If I cry in your arms, it's just some other shit, just some other shit

Just some other things that I've been dealing with

I'd die in your arms, bury me while playing this

Bury me saying: "You were all I ever needed"

And hold me like we're dying from the liquor that we drank down in hotel rooms

To feel warm in cold love

What's harder, harder to say?

That you want me to stay, or that you want me stay unchanged for you?

Chained to a lie, we're the same you and I, we're the same

Well not the same, we hurt differently, but consistent in our pain

Equal and equidistant in the way we laugh to lay bear the weight of our cold love affair

Recalling the days where we were, we weren't, we were

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I remember the first time you brought me back to your house.

We watched parks and rec, you held my hand. We were in those recliners that always felt too far away even years later.

We stayed up until 3 am just talking. I couldn’t even tell you about what. I remember loving listening to you open up to me. I couldn’t help but noticing the mess, the beer cans everywhere. And then, I didn’t care. They were all red flags.

There in your room it felt so natural. It felt so different compared to how you were that night with your friends. I felt like I got this glimpse into you and I loved it even then. Your whole energy changed, you seemed freer, light. Airy. Like we were friend who has known each other before.

If I could go back could I have stopped it? Could I have put a stop to it?

Did I know you? Did I ever know you? Did you ever even let me in?

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And after all, it’s just another day.

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The beautiful, @coconut-mamaa, tagged me to post some selfies. Here’s me with my favorite people + a cute birdie. I tag @moana-n-chill @who-the-hell-is-stuntman-mike @mole--man @cenoteprincess @pyneneedles @deja-emtendu to do the same.

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Today @deja-emtendu took photos of me for my mans birthday ♥️✨

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Photo Taken By: @deja-emtendu 🌸✨🍃

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Photo Taken By: @deja-emtendu ♥️🥀🌚

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“I’m sorry. I’m fucking sorry. You deserve so much more than me.”

“I know.”