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[fruitless-vain]

Focus so hard you walk in to a table

[madmabzaman]

apple blossom, bluebell, daffodil, gladiolus

apple blossom :   how does your muse go about expressing or not expressing their sexuality ? 

How does she not? Mab is not shy about who she's attracted to. She will let you know if she wants you.

bluebell :   does your muse learn from their past ,   or are they prone to repeating the same mistakes ?  

She would like to believe that she does but they are prone to making a the same mistakes in their attempts at relationships everytime. It's always the requiring a value first and not the person first.

daffodil :   is your muse one to be loyal in relationships ,   or are they likely to quickly move from one bond to another ?

Mab is loyal to her people, and when it comes to her more personal relationships she's not really been in anything she would say is serious. She's has a tendency to have friends with benefits rather than proper relationships. She would like to believe she'd be loyal in a relationship.

gladiolus :   describe a moment from your muse’s life that they will never forget .

She will never forget the night she won the civil war of her family. Both of her brothers begging to survive and Mab not being able to allow it to make sure they didn't come back to kill her to reclaim what they lost. So She shot them both, point blank and delivered their blood to the holder of their deal. Since that night, she's relived that memory at night over and over again.

[madmabzaman]

rose, sage

rose :   how much does your muse value other people ?   do they wish to have many friends ,   lovers ,   and/or associates ?   are they an easy person to love ?

Mab's value of people varies, this depends on useful they are. Part of her certainly wish they were more capable of love or to be loved but she fully believes that she is not capable of it. She does wish she had more people she could call close or more than clients.

sage :   what is your muse’s legacy ?   what do they want to be remembered for   &   what might they actually be remembered for ?  

Mab's legacy will definitely be most notably for winning the civil war between herself and her siblings. She would rather be remembered for the rebuilding and expansion that she managed to acomplish.

[madmabzaman]

snapdragon, southernwood, willow, zinnia, peony

snapdragon :   is your muse merciful ?  why or why not ?

No, mercy is a sign of weakness she can't afford. Her life is a constant display of power and any miss step can and will lead to her own death.

southernwood :   how seriously does your muse take themself ?   do they prefer a solemn   &   intellectual atmosphere or do they delight in jokes   &   banter ?  

Mab is rather serious, but has a tendency to make sarcastic jabs at people that try to undermine her. She often uses these as harsh reminders of who she is and what she does. That despite her age and for some her gender she is not to be thought of as lesser.

More recently in her personal life with certain residents she does drop the serious persona and relaxes a little and more likely to make jokes but is a very short list of people.

willow :   how does your muse handle sadness   &   depression ?

She just doesnt. It is in no way healthy. She drinks, she smokes, she does drugs and hooks up. Any show of actual sadness or depression could show as weakness. The only time those feelings are allowed out is in the penthouse alonem and even then it's unlikely. Occasionally a shower break down is required.

zinnia :   how has the loss of fallen comrades and/or loved ones affected your muse ?   has it taught them anything or given them any new perspectives ?

Killing ones own siblings has a profound affect on a person. While it was in self defence it still affects her. Mab's ability to create any kind of lasting relationship. At any moment someone you love could turn on you even when you thought they never would.

peony :   what would a   ‘  happy life  ’   look like in your muse’s eyes ?

Happy is a hard word, but in a dream maybe the hotel being legit, not being under anyone's thumb and her family still alive and not hating her would make her happy. She's sure that'll never be so a dream it will stay. The only likely place she might find that happiness now requires a lot of work and the right person.

[madmabzaman]

hibiscus : how does your muse view the gentler , daintier things in life ? as things worth preserving & caring for , or things only bound to wither & disappear ?

hibiscus : how does your muse view the gentler , daintier things in life ? as things worth preserving & caring for , or things only bound to wither & disappear ?

Mab is not a gentle person, in pretty much every aspect of her life. The closest to dainty she might get are her earrings and even then it's not often. Despite that there are some gentle things she wishes she could have like a true relationship or something that was not illegal but that is unlikely to happen or change.

[dbaydenny]

In their file I live

like a bent cardboard cut-out

someone moves around.

D W Eldred