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I think my favorite part of On My Block that happened and was just brushed away was that Ruby pretty much single handedly ended the truce between Santos and the Prophets by accident and he was a literal kid
“Secrets”
Hope y’all like it! This is the prequel to “I love you maño”. Hope y’all like it!
¡¡¡¡TW/ mention of self harm, cussing, talk of past suicidal thoughts!!!!
“Don’t you dare fucking walk away when I’m talking to you!” Oscar’s voice boomed throughout the quiet neighborhood as Cesar marched past him, up the stairs to the house, ignoring the fuming Santo while also trying to blink away the tears. “Don’t you ignore me either!” Oscar followed behind him as Cesar nearly wanted to slam the door in Oscar’s face but Oscar was too fast, gripping his arm, turning him, “What the hell did she mean by that huh?” If Cesar looked up at Oscar, he would have seen how Oscar’s eyes were watery, how even if he had an angry voice, his face was soft. “Let me go!” Instead Cesar tried to fight out of Oscar’s grip which Oscar only tightened, “Cesar,” Oscar tried to reason, “let me go!” Cesar pushed him back as Oscar released him, Cesar immediately running out of the house and down the street, ignoring Oscar’s yells as he replayed the last hour in his head as he just ran into the night.
(Flashback)
“Can we all just stop arguing for once and actually enjoy the evening?” Jamal asked impatiently as Ruby groaned
“We aren’t even the ones fighting! It’s Monse, again!”
“I just love how everything always gets blamed on me.”
“Cause it’s true!” Everyone (Jasmine, Jamal, Ruby) yell back. Cesar doesn’t do anything as he stares at the ground.
“I swear Monse. If you tell him, it’s all over.” Cesar says as Monse scoffs.
“It’s been over a year Cesar. He needs to know that’s how you feel.”
“And what is he gonna do? Hm. Give me a lecture, tell me I shouldn’t think like that?”
“Look while I agree that he does deserve to know, it’s not YOUR place to tell him. It’s Cesar’s place.” Ruby interjects
“Cesar will never tell him.” Monse snaps back
“Okay but how would you telling him exactly fix the problem?” Jasmine asks and Monse doesn’t respond.
“Look he already feels bad after what happened with our dad, let’s not make it worse.” Cesar ends the conversation by walking away as the gang follows him, Monse staying close behind. The group mingles for a bit before heading to the chip and dip table. It’s when Ruby sees Monse not with them and instead talking to Oscar.
“Shit.” Ruby says as Cesar turns and sees the two before his face going pale. A second later he is practically booking it. The only problem, he had to go past Oscar to get out the backyard. He tried to walk past Oscar but Oscar ended up grabbing him by the collar.
“Going somewhere maño?”
(End Flashback)
Oscar had already called Ruby and told him what happened. Ruby had said that he will go looking and the group minus Monse agreed, with Monse leaving to go home. Ruby gave Geny Oscar’s number, incase Cesar showed up when they were gone. The group left and after maybe 15 minutes, Geny went to go turn on the porch light since it was getting partially dark when she noticed a crouched figure down the street near the stop sign. Immediately recognizing the figure she made her way towards it, sighing as she got closer.
“¿Mijo?” She asked as she heard sniffling as Cesar looks up at her.
“May I join you?” Cesar softly nods as Geny softly sits down beside Cesar as he wipes his eyes.
“Your brother called Ruby. They’re trying to look for you.” Cesar sniffles as he looks down. “Wanna talk on what happened?”
“He found a secret out.” Cesar sniffles, “One that only the group knew and I didn’t want him to know.” Cesar wipes his eyes. “When I first was kicked out, and I didn’t have anywhere to go, I was on the streets. I got it in my head, that I had no one left. I was just a waste of space. Everyone would be better off without me. Hell it was my fault Ruby got shot, Olivia died, the Prophets wanted me dead, the Santos didn’t want me, probably wanted me dead. And I wanted to die.” He begins to cry again as Geny couldn’t help but let a few tears slip. “I wanted to do it. End it all. Was going to use Chivo’s gun one night but stopped cause Ruby showed up. So I started looking at other methods.” He unconsciously rubbed his two wrists.
“Oh mijo,” she brings Cesar into a sideways tight hug as he placed his head on her shoulder and cried. He cried for maybe a few minutes before sighing, “Cesar, I probably won’t be the first person and I definitely will not be the last person to say this. But you matter mijo. You matter to everyone. To us, to your friends, and definitely your brother. Now regardless of what happened, I don’t hate you. In fact, I’ve come to think of you as another son.” Geny says as Cesar begins to cry again, “come on, let’s get you inside.” Cesar got up with Geny as they headed inside, Cesar plopping down on the table as Abuelita fixed him a plate of chips and queso. Geny grabbed her phone and excused herself to the front porch. After she closed the door, she immediately dialed the number.
Oscar was driving down the street trying to see if he spotted Cesar when he phone rang. Not recognizing the number, he contemplated ignoring it. But then remembered he only had Ruby’s number saved so it could have been anyone of the group. “Hello?” He answered, “Is this Oscar?” A female’s vice responded, “Yes?” “This is Geny, Ruby’s mom.” “Oh yes. Sorry.” “It’s okay. Ruby gave me your number. Cesar is here at the house.” Oscar did an immediate U-Turn and headed to Ruby’s house. “Is he okay?” “He’s crying and upset. He talked to me about it and now he is eating a little something.” “Okay, I’m about five minutes away.” “Okay, I’ll be outside waiting.” Geny hangs up as she texts Ruby saying Cesar was at the house and Oscar already knew. Ruby responded they were heading home.
Five minutes later, Oscar’s car pulls up to the house as he gets out. “He’s still eating.” Geny says as Oscar sighs, “Oscar, I won’t tell you what to do. But I will tell you on what not to do, and that is to lecture or drag him.” Oscar sighs as he leans against the house, “Why wouldn’t he tell me?” “Well for starters, he probably didn’t want to make you feel horrible after kicking him out and everything that happened afterwards. Then everything with your dad happened and he probably felt bad after talking smack to you.” Oscar sighed and nodded, “I’m gonna tell you what I told him. I’ve come to think of you as another son. Both of you.” Oscar looks up at her, “I would hate for y’all to hurt each other, whether intentional or not. Talk to him, but don’t be overbearing.” Geny softly smiles as Oscar slowly nods. “Thank you.” He smiles softly as the two hug each other. “Now, he’s inside eating queso.” Oscar chuckles as they go inside. Cesar stoping mid chew as he sees Oscar come inside. He shares a look with Geny who smiles softly. “Cesar,” Oscar starts as Cesar looks at him, “let’s go home.” Oscar smiles as Cesar slowly nods. “But not before you take this.” Abuelita comes out of the kitchen with two Rubbermaids. Both filled with queso, “just so you won’t fight.” Oscar takes the Rubbermaids with a smile as he thanks her and Cesar throws the plastic plate away and goes to Geny. “Thank you.” She smiles as she hugs him tightly, “Of course.” He sighs as he follows Oscar out as Oscar moves quicker than him and is putting the Rubbermaids in the car when Cesar is taking his time.
“Cesar!” He turns to see Ruby and the group walking. Cesar smiles as he goes and hugs Ruby tightly, Jamal immediately joining in along with Jasmine. “I love you compa.” Ruby says in the hug as Cesar smiles as he feels more tears falling. “I love you guys.” He says as they hug for a minute before separating, Cesar going to the car and getting in, not saying a word to Oscar. Oscar starts the car as he drives off towards their house.
Oscar pulls in and before he can even put the car in park, Cesar is out of the car heading into the house. Oscar sighs as he turns the car off and gets out, not forgetting the queso. He gets in the house to see Cesar sitting on the couch looking down, his head in his hands, shoulders shaking from sobbing. Oscar doesn’t say anything and instead first puts the queso in the fridge and then goes to sit on the couch by Cesar, who is still sobbing. Oscar doesn’t know what to do for a good minute but then he pulls in Cesar for a hug, squeezing tightly. “I’m -I’m sorry.” Cesar whispers as Oscar shakes his head. “You have nothing to apologize for.”
“But-the secret,” “was yours to tell, not hers. I was just more upset on the fact I didn’t think to check in on you, to try and figure out what went down when you were out, when I wasn’t there for you. I just thought everything was good and you were good. And that is all on me.” Oscar says as Cesar begins to cry again, “Ay maño, your gonna make yourself dehydrated.” Oscar whispers as he hugs Cesar tightly again. Cesar chuckles as he wipes his face. “Cesar, I don’t want to intrude. But she mentions scars.” Cesar stopped when Oscar mentioned that. “That bitch.” He mutters as he groans. “If you don’t wanna tell or show that’s fine. But I gotta know. How long?” Cesar stays silent, “Since that New Years.” “Shit.” Oscar mutters in response as Cesar sighs, “I’ll be right back.” He says before going up and heading into his room, leaving Oscar on the couch.
Five minutes later Cesar returns changed into a tank and shorts. He sits down by Oscar and just extends his arm out not even looking at Oscar. Oscar takes one look and is already cussing. In the crease, Cesar’s elbow is littered with cuts. “And the other one?” Cesar immediately recoiled when Oscar suggested the other arm. “C?” Oscar asked as Cesar sighed but slowly pulled his other arm to Oscar, revealing scars. And not just tiny scars, there were long thin white scars all around Cesar’s arm. “Shit.” Oscar whispered as Cesar felt himself crying again. Oscar released Cesar’s arms and just pulled Cesar into a tight hug, letting the tears he held for so long out. The two brothers just stay like that for a few minutes as Oscar calms down first and then Cesar. “Oscar, can I go to sleep?” Oscar smiles and nods. “Yeah maño.” The two get up and head to their respective rooms but not before Oscar checks the house. Before Oscar gets into his room, Cesar hugs him tightly again. “I love you mano.” Cesar says, “Love you too.” Oscar hugs Cesar back as Cesar let’s go and goes into his room, Oscar going to his. He changes into some sleep clothes and lays in bed for maybe an hour before digging and getting up. He goes to Cesar’s room and does a quiet chuckle to himself.
Cesar is sprawled out asleep on his bed, sketchbook and pencils out along with Cesar’s phone which is lighting up. Oscar sighs as he goes and puts Cesar’s phone on the charger, but not before catching a read or two on the texts, which were mostly from the group with the group chewing out Monse and then another text came in from just Ruby to Cesar, “You okay, Compa?” Oscar debated on replying since he didn’t want to invade Cesar’s privacy but he shrugged. He opened the text and did a quick reply, “It’s Oscar. Cesar is asleep.” And just for added proof, and to possibly torment his brother more, he sends a pic of Cesar sleeping to Ruby. Ruby replied with an “Okay thank you., and that is my new profile picture for him.” Oscar chuckled. He then grabbed the sketchbook and pencils and put them in their respective places. He noticed Cesar wasn’t covered so he grabbed the blanket and covered him. He turned the lamp off and made his way out quietly.
He laid in bed and quickly fell asleep again. He actually slept okay until he was woken up by the chatting of a certain group of teenagers. Surprised Cesar was still asleep, Oscar made his way to the living room to see Cesar’s friends (minus Monse), and Oso and Sad Eyes in the kitchen with Sad Eyes stopping Oso from eating the queso. “Save one for Cesar. He’d kill you if you touched both.” Oscar comes in the kitchen to already see the coffee pot on and brewing. He chuckled as he pulls out some eggs and vegetables to start making breakfast. “You kids already eat?” The three teens shake their head, “Ph so y’all knew I would feed you three?” He gets a nod in response. “Do me a favor and go wake him up.” The three get up from the couch and head to Cesar’s room, and then Oscar hears laughing and Cesar cussing in Spanish as he laughs himself. He catches Oso grabbing a chip to get some queso as he laughs. “Put that one away.” He points to the closed as Sad Eyes puts it away and Cesar comes to the kitchen, groggily. “And good morning to you.” Oscar teases as Cesar chuckles and leans his head on Oscar. “Want migas or tacos?” “Migas.” Oscar nods as he begins to cook and Cesar gets their coffee ready. Oscar kicks everyone out of the kitchen as the two Santos goes to sit down by the coach as they watch tv with the teens. He begins to cook as Ruby starts to complain about having to plan another party for the next weekend. Man, Oscar loved his newfound small, crazy, dysfunctional but lovable family.
metadinhas ruby&cesar pra vc e seu compa.
Today’s disabled character of the day is Ruben Martinez (Ruby) from On My Block, who has post traumatic disorder
Requested by Anon
... sooooooo, I'm the only one who low (HIGH)key ships Oscar and Ruby... okay I'll just be over here. Yes one cooking scene , some screaming matches , and shit got me in my feelings lol
On My Block fan video : Ruby 💕
May contain spoilers if you haven’t seen S2 !!
💐 it’s okay for boys to cry 💐
Unofficially official part 2~ Ruby Martinez
Summary: Ruby and you had an unofficial thing going on until Olivia shows up and he becomes all about her, you put up with it all until he missed your birthday dinner for her as well. Will Ruby be able to get your heart back or will it be to late?
Pairing: Ruby x reader, Monse x Cesar
Warnings: None
I went the rest of the week without a single attempt from Ruby to talk to me or even explain why he wasn’t at the dinner. It hurt but I wasn’t going to force him to be there if he didn’t want to. I was seated with Monse who was trying to talk me into still having my party tomorrow, “I don’t see why you have to give up on your birthday because he’s being like this. Y/n I think it would be good to have a party who knows what will happen,” she says causing me to think for a little before I could decide.
“You know what that is a good idea,” I say pausing for a moment, “As a matter of fact this is going to be the perfect chance to get over him. Im done,” I say standing and walking over to where I had the outfit I bought for today. I frown a little remembering I picked it out for the sole fact Ruby would love it on me.
Picking up my clothes I turn back towards Monse who looks more than shocked at my response. I wasn’t going to sit around while he got to find someone new without even glancing in my direction throwing away all the promises we made. Saying goodbye to Monse I prepare to get ready, thoughts of our secret summer adventure running through my mind.
//
“You know, sometimes I wish I had a boyfriend but then I remember that you could go through hell with one and they will forget you are there without a single thought,” I say looking towards Ruby who was beside me on my floor, Netflix playing and two “forties” by our sides.
“Well not every guy is like that if you give them the chance.”
“Yeah not every guy is you,” I say laughing slightly to hide the disappointment in my voice.
“Well they don’t have to be when the real thing wants you,” Ruby replied in a serious tone causing me to snap my head to look at him.
Before I knew it our lips were together in what seemed like the fastest kiss of my life and I was face to face with a blushing awkward Ruby, “W-was that okay?” he asked scratching his neck.
I nod looking into his eyes blushing.
Two weeks after we kissed it became a regular thing, Ruby and I were cuddled up on the couch watching tv at my house when he breaks the silence randomly saying, “Just because we aren’t together official I just want you to know that I will never hurt you because I really care about you. I promise that this isn’t going to end up like it would with a douchebag who you get left behind by,” kissing the top of your head when he finishes speaking.
“If you do end up not wanting us to turn into anything or you get feelings for someone else, please just tell me first i’m not going to lie it will hurt but I would rather painful and honest then lies causing me to look like an idiot.”
Ruby nodded looking into my eyes before saying, “Princessa I wouldn’t dream of it, you’re the girl for me.” hiding the blush that was creeping up my cheeks I kiss his jaw and turn my attention back to the show.
The moment I got home that night I called Monse to sleep over so we could talk about it and she ended up telling me about Cesar at the same time.
//
Putting the finishing touches on my outfit I admire how the skirt and top compliment my curves beautifully and how my makeup makes my y/e/c pop since I coordinated it to my outfit rather than my natural look. Smiling at myself I walk out into the kitchen where my parents are setting up, “You ready for your party?” my dad asked as I walked into the room.
Nodding my head I look around the house admiring the subtle decorations that were along the walls, “Do you need anything else done before people arrive, I can help set up,” I offer looking at my mother who was putting food on serving dishes.
“No darling this is the last thing we have to do.”
Nodding I turn to look at the rest of the house as my father wrapped his arm around my shoulders, “You like it hija?”
“Yes dad, it is beautiful,” I reply smiling still.
After fifteen minutes the quest started to arrive one after the next, there wasn’t really a minute for me to stop and sit down for the first twenty minutes. After saying hi to everyone I began to make my way towards my group of friends who were standing off in the kitchen, Monse was having a conversation with my mother as the two stood by the food. Smiling at the two I walk over to them and look around the room for the rest of our group; I spot Jamal and Cesar talking to Olivia though I couldn’t see Ruby anywhere yet. When I couldn’t find him my heart sunk though it sunk even more when Cesar moved slightly, Ruby was stood beside Olivia with a hand on her back. Swallowing the lump in my throat I force a smile in their direction and turn back towards Monse who was none done talking to my mother leaving just me and her.
“Y/n are you okay?” she asked the worry in her voice basically overflowing the moment the words left her mouth.
Nodding I glance back toward the two standing beside Cesar once more before replying, “Yeah, I actually was going to see if you wanted to hit the dance floor.”
Smiling a little she nods and we both head out back where there was a dance floor set up. The moment we are on the dance floor we instantly start dancing, not worrying about a single thing other than the music and Monse beside me. Eventually I began dancing with one of the guys from school I invited not caring about the part in my stomach that was turning because someone other than Ruby was touching me. I was so wrapped up in the music I almost didn’t realize Monse slipped off somewhere, or that the Cesar and Jamal had made their way to the dance floor as well with Olivia in tow. Once a few songs played ended I slipped away from the boy I had just been dancing with and making my way over to my friends, though to no surprise Ruby and Olivia were nowhere to be seen, Monse standing where Olivia was the last time I looked in their direction. Smiling at the I say, “Hey guys, having fun?”
“Of course,” Cesar says smile at me before shooting a glance between Monse and the dance floor like no one seen though I did.
“Have you been on the dance floor yet?” I ask hoping Monse catches on to what i’m doing since I nudged her before continuing, “Me and Monse were out there earlier it was great.”
Monse caught on to my idea and agreed dragging Cesar along to dance though I could tell she was thankful there were no slow songs played at all so far. As they walked away I looked at Jamal with a soft smile, “Do you want to go dance to?”
Shaking his head no he looks at me and replies, “Im going to talk have some snacks and talk to your dad about roller world.” I nod understanding that Jamal loved talking to my dad and Ruby’s grandma because they were the only two to play along with his beliefs in the whole thing.
I walked inside beside Jamal hoping to find Ruby for the first time tonight. I spotted him in one of the more private corners of my kitchen with her beside him where she always was, locking eyes with Olivia I can’t help but let all the hurt show for once. She held my gaze momentarily causing Ruby to turn around confusion written clearly on his features until his eyes meet mine causing me to turn around, rushing off to my room to relax before I go back out there; I can’t just hide away during my own birthday party. Closing my door I slip down it sitting with my knee against my chest, eyes tightly pressed closed trying to calm my breathing and stop the tears threatening to spill not wanting to ruin my makeup.
I sat silently like that for about five minutes before I heard a knock at the door bringing my attention back to reality rather than thinking about the boy downstairs who officially broke his promise he made to me before Olivia came into the picture. ‘This is my party I'm not going to sit here sulking over petty teenage boys' I thought to myself as I stood from the floor and straightened myself up before open the door. I was expecting to be met by Monse or my mother, but instead it was the culprit of all this himself. Straightening my back, I narrow my eyes and look at him before speaking, “What could you possibly want, don’t you have to go do something for Olivia?” I asked irritation evident in my voice.
I was about to push past him when he grabbed my arm and said, “Why would I do that when I could spend time with you on your birthday?”
I spun around to face him ripping my arm from his grasp in the process the moment the words left his mouth, “No Ruby you can’t actually. I’m not going to act like everything is cool anymore because it’s no. I wanted to spend today with you, and my actual birthday with you but none of that happened because you have been to busy with Olivia. Since she moved here I have no longer existed and honestly it hurts, so the last thing I want to do right now is spend time with you,” It was harsh but at the moment that was how I felt.
“Why would you say that y/n?” he asked his voice dropping, I could see the hurt on his face and I wanted nothing more than to comfort him but at this point he hurt me more than those words just hurt him.
“Why would I say that, really Ruben? How about why would you kiss me and act like we were a couple all summer then the moment Olivia comes along I lose you, which I would have been fine with if it wasn’t for the promises you broke along the way?” I asked beyond annoyed at the victim card he was attempting to play at the moment.
“You didn’t lose me,” he says as he tries to grab my hand though I pull my hand out of his reach before he can grab it.
“I heard you tell Monse you called dibs on her the day we met her, every plan we have had you couldn’t make because of her. You didn’t even come to my birthday dinner because she wasn’t invited,” I say finally letting the defeat and hurt slip through and show rather than just anger.
A few stray tears slipped out and he reached up wiping them away careful not to mess my makeup and our of instinct I leaned into his hand, only to pull away when I realized what I was doing. Reaching out he grabbed my face between his hands gently, “Princessa no, don’t cry I love you. I know what I have been doing is the biggest dick move and I have missed you like crazy, that whole night that I missed your dinner I felt like shit but I was trying to make Olivia feel welcome. I wish I could take everything back and go back to how we were this summer but I can’t, instead I can try to make it up to you and prove I love you if you will let me.”
By the time he was done talking his voice was barely above a whisper and I could somewhat see tears going down his cheek through the blurriness of the ones I was holding back, I had no idea what to say or if I could trust my voice to say anything at all. So I answered him the one way I knew he'd understand, leaning in I brought our lips together in a soft kiss answering him in the only way I could think of. When we separated and he said, “I have to make sure to thank Monse, if it wasn’t for her I wouldn’t have thought there was something wrong,” at this point we had our arms wrapped around each other, our foreheads resting together, his voice is no higher than a whisper as though he was talking to himself more than me, “I thought you knew I loved you no matter what idiotic thing I do, but now I know I need to appreciate my girl so I don’t lose her.”
I can’t help the smile that spreads across my face the moment he calls me his girl, leaning in I his him again though more passionate than the last before pulling away and whispering, “I love you to.”