Alright, fuck me, but I love her so much. But she’s such a quiet and introverted person. I’m super boisterous and loud with how I love someone. I could hold them all day, just sit with them, give them whatever it is I physically could that would make them happy. But that’s not what she needs. she need space, quiet, and to be left alone often. I am completely opposite to this, and so I feel like I can’t show her how much I love her because of this. Like she’ll absolutely hate me if I try to show her how much I love her, if I tell her, or try to do anything. And I don’t know what to do. She’s more than I could ever ask for, and I want to do everything I can for her. So I’m going to have to learn to hold back and give her space. Just let her think things out. But I don’t know how to do that very well. I stress and become incredibly anxious, like every time maybe it’s the last time. Maybe she’s gonna call back and say she’s done. Fuck I don’t know what to do but as she asks. So I’m just going to stay quiet, and wait for her. But aw hell it sure tears at me. And I don’t know what to do. What if she chooses someone else? I wish not but can’t stop her if she does.
