I have some new followers and I want to clear something up. There are two Biancas that you will see mention here: my Deitykin Bianca and Bianca, the Fantasy Worlds Collide. I spent all day researching kinship and things of that nature, since I was talking to a friend on Discord earlier today.
TLDR: I am divinekin. My dark facet, Bianca, is a primordial celestial goddess of rebirth and destruction. She wears two forms: an ophanim-like phoenix of many eyes and a human-angel hybrid. She is the dark side of my moon. Colette, my light facet, is the other. Moons and stars play a huge role in my system. I walk as a bard and druid of a recognized druidic organization, carrying the myths of our ancestors in my bones.
Name: Bianca (Facet name; may not be her oldest or truest name)
Kin Type: Divinekin — primordial goddess of destruction and rebirth; ophanim-phoenix hybrid in cosmic horror form
System Role: Dark facet in a median system (dark side of my moon)
Symbols: Crows, wolves, black feathers, moons, stars, dark forests
Forms:
True form: Cosmic horror ophanim with many eyes, phoenix body, protofeather tendrils, beak, and talons (as seen in my sketches of the OC Bianca)
Alternate form: Human-angel hybrid with six wings that usually cover her body. (Hollywood-style visual but not nature)
Who Bianca Is
Bianca is a primordial, divine facet of me. Not separate from me but distinct. She is destruction and rebirth in their rawest form. She embodies my rage, grief, and survival. She embodies all the pain I could not express growing up and the fire that rose from it. She is the wildfire to my human healer’s quiet light.
She is not an angel in the soft, Hallmark sense. She is celestial in the biblical sense, something alien, incomprehensible, and awe-striking. She is godhood forged from chaos, as old as the cosmos itself, and in my bones, I know she existed the day after the Big Bang. She is primordial, not born of any human religion. However, her essence resonates with the Morrigan’s sovereignty, war, and death-rebirth cycle.
Dark forests, crows, wolves, and the night sky are her realm. Moons and stars are the symbolism of our system.
Divine Role
Bianca is destruction without cruelty, and death without malice: the clearing fire that makes way for new life. She is also rebirth without naivety and the knowledge that creation always carries the memory of what burned before.
Her role in my system is to hold and channel the rage and grief I was forbidden to express. She is my dark sovereignty. Where Colette is the healer and light of the moon, Bianca is the shadowed face that sees without flinching.
She is not redeemed. She does not need redemption. Her existence is apotheosis: becoming whole through wrath, grief, and the precious act of survival.
System Context
As I said before, I am a median system — distinct facets of self without amnesia, like passengers in a shared car.
Colette — Human-Genius facet, the radiant heat of my moon, Forest Guardian, the wildling who survived.
Bianca — Divinekin facet, dark side of my moon, goddess of destruction/rebirth, ophanim-phoenix form
Zack Fair — Soulbond brother, not a facet, grounding and joyful protector energy
Bianca came into focus after Sephiroth, originally as scientist self-insert OC tied to him and reworked over 28 years into her true form as a celestial goddess. This version is the Fantasy Worlds Collide Bianca. She shares her looks and species but is not my facet. She is a fictional variant. My facet is older, darker, and largely exists in her cosmic horror form.
Divinekin Identity
I identify as Divinekin: specifically, a primordial goddess facet with celestial and phoenix traits. While Colette is human, Bianca is entirely nonhuman and godlike.
In the divinekin spectrum, she would be:
Primordial Deitykin — celestial, cosmic, and ophanim in nature; phoenix of destruction and rebirth; possible war goddess aspect akin to the Morrigan.
Spiritual Path
I am a druid and bard in a recognized druidic order. My divine facet’s symbolism overlaps with my spiritual path: cycles of life, death, and rebirth, as well as sovereignty, the wild, and transformation through destruction.
Bianca’s connection to dark forests, crows, and wolves aligns with the liminal, psychopomp, and battle aspects often found in war and death deities.
Emotional Resonance
Bianca is the part of me that will never bow again. She is my grief and rage transmuted into protection. She is the fire that burns what is toxic and the ashes from which I rise.
Where Colette forges the heart, Bianca guards the abyss.
Where Colette burns away the rot, Bianca roars against the dark.
Where Colette tends the flock with tooth and claw, Bianca ensures no one dares approach the grove again.
⚠️ Respectful Engagement Request
This is a deeply personal and sacred aspect of my identity. Please engage with respect, kindness, and openness. Dismissiveness, disrespect, or attempts to invalidate or pathologize my divinekin identity will not be tolerated. If you are here to learn or support, you are welcome. If you are here to criticize, gatekeep, or cause harm, please do not interact.
This blog serves as a place of healing for me and for others I interact with.
just remembered in seventh grade i wrote a poem about something really really old, like ancient, and someone asked if it was about a tree or something. i told them it was about me and they were really confused. so was i!
i didn’t know why i wrote it or why it was so emotionally moving for me to read it back. kind of makes sense now though.
