what kills me about the eighth doctor is that, he truly feels like the doctor that doesn't want to be the doctor anymore.
now there has been president to the distruction and terrible things the doctor leaves in his wake, heck, one of the better things from the moffet era showed the effect the doctor has on the univerce, but eight's distain of Doctorhood doesn't come at the distruction of the univerce, it comes at the disctuction of the self!
his stories and his era, at least the audios in the Charley and eventually C'rizz era, feel like the proper first time the Doctor has realized, and started hating, how being The Doctor can be destructive to a person!
what i love about him so much is the fact the actually voices how terrible being the Doctor can be to a person's mental health, to his sense of identity, to his sense oif belonging to his own univerce. his awearness of how powerful he is does not come with a throne, it comes with a mirror facing to him, and hating what he sees.
he is the Doctor who is there to get hurt and put back together, because the univerce needs him, because his companions loves him, and because he does not know how to be anyone else, and in its own way, its mesmerising















