Magical Cyberspace
The internet changed my life. Writing a blog is so liberating in the sense I can talk about whatever the fuck I want. I can’t express my feelings to my friends and family the same way I can express my feelings to the cyber world.”When you come out as trans, it’s hard to tell your wife, or your het bros, or your dad, or your, I don’t know, bookstore coworkers. For whatever reason though, it’s pretty easy to tell some person from Alaska or California or y’know, England”. Here I can finally “exist without this problematic body” I’m stuck with when I’m offline” ( 61, Binnie). I’ve been blogging since I was a little baby, like eighteen or nineteen years old. You could say I’m pretty popular or “famous” on the internet, “but so is everybody, so it’s not very interesting” (91, Binnie). It’s kinda cool that I figured out I was trans through blogging. Fucking weird, but cool at the same time. Even cooler - kids who are figuring out that they’re trans look up to me. This “Magical Cyberspace” - I like to call it - is a platform where people can spill their deepest darkest secrets and meet like-minded people (or trans people in my case). Blogging introduced me to the trans world. Through connecting with other people from around the world, I realized who I was, why I felt so different. It allowed me to begin to come to terms with my gender identity. I have spent hours blogging about life, and through my writing I have been able to better understand myself, the transitioning process, trans people. It’s been a roller-coaster of emotions. Life outside of this “Magical Cyberspace” can be intimidating and uninviting. Online I can continue to challenge dominant narratives of how girls and boys should act or present their genders. The internet is nothing but the most brilliant digital platform in the world because:
1. The people I connect with finally get me. (yay for being understood!)
2. Content is shared around the world, picking up thousands of views, allowing everyone to speak their mind on topics important to them. Of course dealing with the internet trolls of the world suck, but whatever. It happens.
3. I am the author of my own trans life.