anyone else randomly like to sprint to make their chest hurt and to remind them theyre still alive? Just me? Alr..
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anyone else randomly like to sprint to make their chest hurt and to remind them theyre still alive? Just me? Alr..
I know it’s gonna be highly unlikely and he’s probably gonna be imaginary but I’m holding hope that Sunday will be quantum bc I barely have any other ones besides qingque and lynx 😭😭
tell me what keeps your whumpee up all night? past trauma? insecurities? sick? hiding an injury? what is ailing your whumpee and does anyone notice?
hhhhh i finished their valentines gift!!
I’ve been feeling extremely restless, nauseous, guilty, confused, stressed out. And I don’t say this to play victim, I say it just to acknowledge my feelings to myself. I texted my friend all my scattered thoughts and he just said “bruh. find some chill.” And damn is he right lmao. Thankful for friends who don’t feed into my crazy and keep me grounded.
I stuck my headphones in and stood outside under the porch covering, breathing the cold air and the rain, drinking my coffee slowly. It’s a cozy Saturday morning (afternoon) and I’m really excited about my research and I have the whole house to myself since everyone else went out for the day...and yet I’m spending it feeling physically sick over my thoughts and my feelings.
It is what it is. I think I need to feel this physical sickness, I need to feel this emotional distress. I deserve to - not in a self-depreciating way, but in a way where I should have felt these feelings a long time ago, and for whatever reason (numbness, distraction, whatever it might have been) I did not. This is part of the process though, and I need to feel it. It’s only fair.
I’m really trying to keep my mind open. To allow these feelings in instead of putting up walls. To allow myself to criticize the way I handled things without it turning to self-depreciation. But also to stand by what I know, stand by what I believe in. My head has been a bit chaotic lately but I’m trying to let it happen. It will sort itself out. And while it does, I can take little breaks by standing barefoot in the rain and drinking my coffee. I can do that.
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Bless all Aishas who take up that semi-support roll and buff magic.
They are special and need to be protected.