Special Interview: DIE (hide with Spread Beaver/Ra:IN) - Translation
[Published in the book hide word FILE by Oshima Akemi, 2018]
DIE was selected as a member of the hide band after playing keyboard as support for the band ZI:KILL that hide had discovered. He, whom hide loved for his mischievous, daring image even though he had a low tolerance for hide's beloved alcohol, told us about the side of hide that people do not know.
- Do you remember the first time you met?
DIE: I remember. It started when hide-chan had his solo debut and appeared on "Music Station" and I was asked to come. I waited nervously in the dressing room that morning, but in the end, I met him afterwards at a place called "Little Star" in Roppongi. He handed me the "HIDE YOUR FACE" CD and told me, "If you like this, I'd like to work with you." Although I had done some work in backing bands, that was the first time someone said something like that to me. I figured he probably didn't want someone who didn't like the music and was just doing it for work. "This is someone who takes his own music very seriously," was my first impression of him. At that time, hide-chan was wearing sunglasses and talked only about music. I drank two moscow mules even though I am no good with alcohol, but in the end it was hide-chan who declared, "I better go home now." He must have been exhausted, was struggling to speak. The moment we left the bar, he threw up. (laughs)
- What was your impression when you listened to that CD?
DIE: Honestly, I was surprised. It was very good, and it felt more like "New Rock" than the album of a guitarist. Most importantly, it was all about the vocals. Another thing that surprised me was that on the first day of the rehearsals, hide-chan bleached my hair. My hair was black at the time, which he apparently thought was a bit plain, so he made the other members wait in the studio. That's not normal, is it? At that time I did not know he had a cosmetology license and was very baffled, thinking, "Who is this guy?"
- Did he just come up with that?
DIE: Yeah. I don't know if he had thought of it before or if it just suddenly came to mind, but he said, "Let's make you blond!" Also, the name DIE: When we were drinking at "Little Star", he said to me, "DIE-chan, that's D.I.E., isn't it? It means, "death", that's so cool!" Being around 30 years old at the time, I thought, "Is it, though?", but I couldn't say, "NO". Same with the blond hair, I thought, "For real?!", but I couldn't say "NO"… However, while I had played in other backing bands, I had never had a chance to drink and talk with the star before, so I felt some affection towards him and thought, "I want to be of use to this person."
- That was the start of the solo-tour, right?
DIE: Yeah. The people around hide-chan, also known as the "Matsumoto-group", were all funny and considerate people who felt like a family. For the segments where hide-chan wasn't on stage, the members and the staff would excitedly suggest things like, "Let's do the crab-dance here," or "How about a little bit of keyboard?" It was the kind of atmosphere where hide-chan just set the tone and then everyone was free to do whatever. While I did see him get angry if a live show didn't go well, he was overall a calm person who didn't say much. Since the song "SCANNER" didn't have keyboard in it and I didn't have anything to do throughout it, I added some "Pi-" noises by myself without saying anything to hide-chan. Then, about halfway through the tour, he said to me, "DIE-chan, that ghostly synth-sound, that was good!" That made me happy, thinking, "Oh, he really listened to me," giving his OK even though the sound interfered with his guitar, giving us that flexibility. I think, rather than putting himself first, he enjoyed collaborating with everyone.
- DIE-san, wasn't it because of hide-san's advise as well that you picked up a guitar on stage?
DIE: That's right. One time he noticed that I had nothing to do and looked bored during the rehearsal for "OBLAAT", so he told me, "Why don't you grab a guitar and come forward?" You can see everything that's going on because of the mirrors in the studio. He was always looking around even when he pretended otherwise. At the second afterparty of one night during the tour, I was feeling a little unwell and resting on the stairs outside the bar, when hide-chan came to me and said, "You don't have to force yourself to drink alcohol." With so many people inside that dark bar, I am surprised he even noticed my absence. Didn't he say in interviews and such that "it's a requirement for being in my band that you can hold your alcohol"? Even so, he was kind to me. Talking to PATA, he also said that hide-chan could be a troublemaker, but I think he did that on purpose. At that afterparty, he must have been thinking, "I have to do my best as hide."
- During the tours, you were always together, right?
DIE: Apparently, he told the staff, "Treat the others the same as me," and so, when we were on the road as well as in the hotels, hide-chan was always with us. He probably wanted us to feel like a band. But there were always cameras rolling while traveling and in the dressing room, and while that made me feel like a star, it was very stressful that we couldn't let our guard down.
- During the second tour, at the Chiba Marine Stadium (Now: ZOZO Marine Stadium), you injured your foot, didn't you?
DIE: The day after that event was the first live performance of GLAY at Nippon Budôkan (I was also a support member of GLAY), so the first thing I thought was "What am I supposed to do tomorrow…?" (laughs) But something happened at the time of that event that I can't forget. After the performance was over, hide-chan came to my place and told me, "DIE-chan, even with a broken bone, we're still taking you along for the tour, so don't worry." I thought then, "Look at that, this is someone who understands what others are feeling." He immediately thought about my feelings. And then, when we were on the road, he pushed my wheelchair and all. He was a kind guy.
- This may not be the best way to phrase it, but on stage, a "good performace" was the objective, wasn't it?
DIE: I think that was also because of hide-chan. During the tours, the song "Natural Born Onanist" from my own solo album was supposed to be performed at the time when hide-chan changed clothes, but because I had broken my food, he offered to push around my wheelchair. And then he pushed it wherever I pointed. If he hadn't done that, it wouldn't have been as exciting. In that regard, he was an amazing producer. He made cool things cooler and funny things funnier, and i think he had the best sense for balance.
- How did things go when you started hide with Spread Beaver?
DIE: We weren't told anything. We were asked to come to X JAPAN's Last Live, and the first time we heard about it was when we were shown the full-page ad in the morning paper at the afterparty. He looked so happy, going, "See, isn't this amazing?" but we were all like, "Uh, what is this?" No one had any complaints since this was good news, but he never asked for our agreement. Anyway, he loved surprising people and making them happy. We were getting surprised all the time, so at the final show of the regional tour, the band members and the staff got together and decided to secretly change the start of one of the songs. hide-chan wasn't used to being the one who got surprised, so he was left with his mouth hanging open in shock.
- That sounds like fun just hearing about it.
DIE: We were all close in age, so it felt like we were just hanging out with each other. hide-chan used the word "Kotona" for those times. It's a mix of "Kodomo" [child] and "Otona" [adult], he'd say to the band "You are all kotona." When we were on tour, I was the only one who had to return home early in the morning for work, and as I was about to leave the hotel, I found hide-chan and I.N.A.-chan completely wasted in the lobby, before they proceeded to chase my taxi 100 meters down the road. When I later asked, "What were you doing?" they told me, "We were exploring the hotel," and I thought, "You guys are middle schoolers…" "Kotona" really referred to hide-chan himself.
- What were the words you heard most often?
DIE: "Let's go drink" or "Let's have a drink," stuff like that. Even though he didn't say it to me as much, a lot of what he said had to do with alcohol. There was remarkably little talk about women. I don't mean it in a weird way, but hide-chan was a little feminine himself. He played his guitar solos like he was sewing, in a feminine way. Male guitarists play roughly, like "Ja—ng!", but what hide-chan did was more delicate. Up until then, I had never been in awe when meeting a CEO or someone else admirable; I think with hide-chan that happened for the first time. I guess that's what happens when you meet someone you can truly respect.
- Being in awe of someone doesn't happen often, does it?
DIE: Yeah. I never felt that way with anyone else. Sometimes, he had that look in his eyes that made it impossible to tell what he was thinking, and that may have been a point that put me in awe because it set him apart from ordinary people. Also, he loved music so much and listened to a lot of CDs. When I went to his place in L.A., I was surprised by the number of CDs he had.
- Earlier, you mentioned that he started hide with Spread Beaver without telling you about it, but what happened after that?
DIE: He never said anything like "Let's do it this or that way." He just said, "I want to record "TELL ME" with these members. Let's start from there." Even though he did not say a word, I understood completely when he showed us the newspaper announcement. "Oh," I thought, "it's a band", and we already got excited. One time, there were issues with the schedule, and I was told on the phone, "DIE-chan, like this you can't go on tour with us," and I was like, "Wait a second. I want to go with you, hide-chan," and managed to rearrange the conflicting schedule. Because I thought, "If I'm with hide-chan, I might make it out into the world."
- What were the last words you exchanged with hide-chan?
DIE: The evening before he passed away, we went to a bar with a live band after filming a TV program, and he was in a good mood and requested the song "Honesty" (Billy Joel). At that time, the word "Dioxin" was being used by everyone, and he laughed like he had fun and he played around with the words DIE and Dioxin, saying they should make a song that goes like, "DIEDIEDIEDIEDioxin".
- If you could say something to hide-san now, what would it be?
DIE: Something like, "Let's do it again, together." And also, "Thank you."
- hide-chan must have been a very special person to you.
DIE: He was. Because he was someone who often played pranks. One time, I did "Pink Spider" with Osawa Yoshiyuki-san, and during that tour, swallowtail butterflies were fluttering around all over Japan, no matter where we went. That was strange, because swallowtails are not something you see very often. Also, when I went to the X JAPAN concert at Tokyo Dome where hide-chan appeared in 3D, I couldn't find the cigarette pack with the ticket inside that I had left in the dressing room, and I was about to give up and accept that I had lost it when it somehow showed up in my car. On top of that, the ticket number was 110. 110 was Hideto's number, and it was also the license plate of Kujira (hide's beloved car), so I thought, "hide-chan is up to his mischief again." I'm sure he got a kick out of watching me panic.












