Apr 4, 2023
looks at the ever increasing pile of late and about-to-be-late schoolwork i have to do
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looks at the ever increasing pile of late and about-to-be-late schoolwork i have to do
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fucking fuckity just fucking write your fucking documentation strategy proposal you fuck!!!
ugh. hate the chest tightness + nonstop yawning bc i can't get a deep breath + headache when i get an asthma flare-up. boggles my mind that i just lived with this constantly, so bad that taking an emergency inhaler only helped for about 15 minutes, for like. six months. and then a year of it being poorly managed before i finally got a handle on it.
looking back on your own suffering - physical, mental, whatever - is so odd. the person i was then was struggling so much. it feels like a privilege to struggle as much as i do now compared to then.
The fact that I lost access to my Pokémon go account when my college email lapsed makes me SO sad. It is unironically so upsetting to think about. I have such good memories of that first summer when the app came out and it crashed like every 5 minutes and I was late to my internship one time because I would always play Pokémon go on my commute and there was a rare Pokémon I was desperately trying to catch but having trouble with so I flattened myself against the wall of one building a few blocks outside Times Square and spent several sweaty August minutes struggling before finally catching the lil guy
And then introducing my mom to the game and getting her hooked and going on long walks on the nature trails near her house that had a bunch of poke stops along the way
Gosh I miss it dearly
Suddenly afraid and desperate to start medically transitioning, in the way that I often get at 2am when I start panicking about how much time I’ve wasted and feel like I can’t possibly wait another minute
>:( i pulled a muscle in my lower back last week and it was feeling better and then i pulled it AGAIN last night. and now i have 50 feet of driveway to shovel. smh.
Me: why have I been feeling short of breath and like there’s a heavy weight on my chest for the last few weeks
Also me: neglected, once again, to order a montelukast refill and hasn’t taken my asthma meds (OR allergy meds) in over a month