#otp: dnd

[estrider]

man. the worst fucjing part about homestuck is im 100% about to fall back into it. it fucks so bad, man. i hate it here.

[estrider]

anyway since im on my strider lovin bullshit.

i have decided to be back on my bullshit once more. dirk strider is epic and here are the reasons why:

his most notable scenes? unite, synchronization; and prince of heart: rise up? they're SO different and people need to know that.

unite is dirk having a panic attack due to things not going his way and hal fixing everything for him. unite is basically [dirk flips his lid and is badass doing it, to his dismay.]

while prince is the exact opposite side of the coin! dirk is in total control here, he just stopped an assassination attempt on him and roxy and managed to show the condensense he's awake and ready to fucking take )(er down. prince is dirk in his element. unite is him out of it, yet unite is better known.

The song you go to when looking for dirk music? Unite.

The flash you go to when looking for dirk inspo? unite.

especially for his movements, LORD are they CRISP in this.

Like. There's no other damn explanation than "mister control freak freaks out asmr while doing kickflips"

also an explanation of who dirk is below for the uninitiated.

so, dirk is this pretentious fucknut who basically holds himself to impossibly high standards due to internalized hell that he's put himself through.

he's an incredibly deep character, imo, but no one really thinks too hard about it bc "haha funny anime dude has animal crossing glasses"

dirk is incredibly smart, but not so much so to not try and control every aspect of his life if he can manage it. He's utterly terrified of losing his friends, his control, and what shreds of himself he has left.

dirk basically spent all of his formative years separated from any human contact until he was about ~10-12 and got a working internet connection and found Roxy.

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🌙 🌙 🌙 if youre still taking these 👁👄👁

i sure am! Ty for the ask 👁👄👁

🌙 - so, Raiden has horrible stress nightmares due to his ptsd, and tends to wake up terrified, but not wanting to admit it. He ends up texting me and basically just rambles about his day until his brain calms down enough to conk back out. Raiden basically has the "i gotta talk until i cant breathe and no words come out" gene. He just rants and raves about how Felix treated him, how the kids mocked him, etc. It takes over a hour, in the middle of the night, for Raiden to calm down enough to breathe regularly, much less, to get back to sleep; but once he's calm he doesn't want to stop talking to me. It's really cute.

🌙 - Vice, on the other hand, overworks himself when he's stressed, throwing himself blindly into paperwork, into the quarantined areas, hoping to find any semblance of closure in his lack of solace. He throws himself wholeheartedly into his addictions and into his work, closing himself off completely. Hyde basically just has the "if it's not perfect I hate it" gene. To the point of not sleeping for days at a time, almost lashing out at his coworkers, only being able to hold back by sheer force of will. He basically chainsmokes until his throat is raw, rolling his own cigars, and figures it's better to be hated for who he is, than loved for what he's not. Prinz has no hope of pulling him out of this stupor, and allows Vice to work himself to exhaustion, then picks up the pieces that result from the crumbling porter.

I should talk about the one who my url is named for huh. You've forced my hand.

🌙 - Dirk, similarly to Vice, has the work until he can't gene. Luckily, on Earth C, there's far less to do, and also more in the same breath? It depends a lot on your own ability to find something to do, or to entertain yourself. He tends to find solace in Joel, and in his robots. Largely, he spends his stressed time coding and drawing, isolating himself and basically forgetting to care for himself unless forced to. Joel is able to get him to care for himself at times, like making him eat, shower, etc. it takes a lot of effort from them both. on those days, Dirk wonders why Joel puts up with him at all, much less, to the extent he does. He crumbles further into himself, basically only reachable by telecommunication at this point. It's admittedly sad, but he does pull himself out of the hole. He manages to beat back his hellbrain with a broom for weeks at a time, and lord does it feel great.

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The “New Ask Game” ask game with Dirk (or any f/o of your choice, really)?

!! mornin abi!

-What made me like them?

Okay, for Dirk, it's kinda complicated. Believe it or not, when I saw Dirk originally in like 2015 I hated him. Couldn't tell you why! I just know I did. I grew to like him through ask blogs on tumblr, and honestly just thought his cool dude persona was really cute!

-My favorite thing about them?

My favorite thing about him is probably his resolve. He's so stubborn and resolute in his beliefs, even going as far as denying what people tell him. It's adorable but frustrating.

-Nicknames we have for each other?

I call him joking titles for royalty, and he calls Joel J, or bluejay. Due to Joel being a jerk and liking shiny stuff. Plus its cute!!

-A headcanon of our relationship/friendship?

Joel makes most of the shells for the robots Dirk makes, due to being better at the metalworking than Dirk.

-My favorite image of them?

I don't have any images 😔 but I can supply this snippet of a fic ive been working on!

The auto-responder asked him “What are you doing up here by yourself? You know moping is bad for you. What would Joel say?"Dirk had no response, of course. He knew he was being irrational, but he couldn’t help the spiral he found himself trapped in. His mind recoiled at the mere idea of reaching out for help, his Bro having ensured he’d only do so when absolutely necessary. He didn’t view this as an emergency.

Standing on the cliff face, highest fall you'll ever grace

It scares me half to death

Dirk stood on the edge of the roof, looking over the deep murky water. He took off the computerized dark glasses, putting the triangular glass into his sylladex. The point of this was unclear to him, his defense mechanism now moot. He leaned against the radio tower, eyes cast skywards. Unsure of when he had moved, he allowed himself to idle for a moment.

Look out to the future, but it tells you nothing

So take another breath

His lungs burned, his chest tighter than he was used to, he took a shaky breath, eyes cast skywards. With a shuddering sigh, his mind ran on overdrive, focusing on his flaws particularly the ones related to Joel. He couldn’t help but feel unworthy of the heir, the heir’s "bubbly” personality being too much to ignore. Me had a friendly disposition, but me has to be worn out due to the stress of moris’ session. His mind unhelpfully supplied. He shook it to try and clear it, to no avail.

Your hands protect the flames

From the wild winds around you

-Anything else!

lord im gay for an anime hunk. thank u for reading.

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assumption that you and dirk wear each others clothes when the others clothes are in the wash or sumn. but dirks tig bitties and arms said Stretch It -cherubsoda

@cherubsoda

lay ur so fucking right, he’s Huge and a Mega-Hunk. Joel’s a regular-ass hunk, so when Dirk puts on Joel’s shirts, they just. [rip sound effect]. Dirk has to learn how 2 sew to make up for this misdeed.

edit: what the fuck dirk already knows how to sew what am i talking abt

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im kinda torn about Dahl being asleep [read, dormant] rn. im thankful hes asleep so he doesn't have 2 deal w me being a blushy and awful around him

but also. i miss him. a lot. i know itd be embarrassing to have him read thru the tag i made for him, but like. i made it for him 4 a reason. i dunno. i feel kinda ignored a lot rn and.

i miss my bfs. i love jack to pieces dont misunderstand me. i just miss my other bfs. the idea that i have so many possible partners lodged together in one system is so freeing and. its so pure and i love it. thank you for being with me.

this got rambly. im conflicted as to how to feel bc on one hand i miss him and want his attention so much. on the other, i don't wanna embarrass either of us and i think this would ruin his "carefully cultivated cool guy" persona. yknow. Dahl if u do read this, ily and hope youre okay.

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🎵 and dirk :0

oh thats easy. guillotine by Jon Bellion, or Icarus by Bastille.

lyrics Below! :3 first off is guillotine.

The secrets you tell me I'll take to my grave

There's bones in my closet, but you hang stuff anyway

And if you have nightmares, we'll dance on the bed

I know that you love me, love me

Even when I lose my head

And Icarus. which reminds me. i need to get back to that fic.

Icarus is flying too close to the sun

Icarus's life, it has only just begun

This is how it feels to take a fall

Icarus is flying towards an early grave

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(This is my main, my selfshippin blog is @abbacchios-amore!!) Yo, your ship with Dirk is absolutely wonderful!!! He loves you so, so much, and can’t imagine life without you 🥺🥺!

AH THANK YOU SO MUCH 🥺🥺🥺🥰🥰🥰 this means sm to me i 😭 love hearing people actually like my ship??