hey everyone, we probably all know what happened by now. i don't think the situation needs any introduction.
what zeal did is sickening and even though i couldn't get through the entire document myself, i trust and support ren. this is vile and zeals project doesn't deserve any more support or recognition, as any of that would probably end up being support of him. i don't think the statement he's supposedly working on can change anything either. this is just disgusting and my heart goes out to null.
to think i have poured so much passion into it makes me feel dirty and i will not continue doing it. daily pressure and anything else strictly official pressure related is over. i always admired the work of people unrelated to the main dev team (music producers, concept artists and voice actors) the most and seeing as even they're stepping down, the game feels like an empty shell anyway. not that it matters, as a real person got severely hurt.
as to what this means for my activity online, in more detail (keeping under the cut, as i don't think this should be the main focus in here, but i want to clearly clarify my stance as such an active content creator for the game, in full):
samuel is going to get detached from being an oc for this game and so are all of the projects related to them. i know i have a bunch of gift art of them i haven't responded to yet, but in the current situation i will not do it as a) im severely uncomfortable with samuels current attachment to the game and b) i think getting hyped about anything related to the game would be very, extremely distasteful. this is not the time to look away from the victim. however, i appreciate what you made and i have seen it. all of your works are wonderful. i hope i can properly thank all of you soon.
i might turn my sebastian (and possibly painter) into an oc as well. i always thought the writing for him was ultimately handled pretty poorly and most of his charm came from his passionate community, my own ideas, overwrites and giannis efforts. to me, he stopped being truly zeal's (and the rest of the dev team's) a long time ago. however, i don't think i can bring myself to draw him for a while as he still was the poster boy for this harrowing mans creation and his main cash cow.
whatever i choose to do next, because i definitely am moving away from pressure, i do want to say thank all of you for your support. you made my passion for art come back, and even though daily pressure was, at times, a bumpy ride for me, i still consider it to be one of my greatest accomplishments. i met so many wonderful people thanks to it, too.
thank you for sticking with me through it, it really was an honour, and thank you for all kind wishes you've given me in the past couple of hours. i will not reply to every single one of them, as once again, this isn't about me and i don't want to shift attention from the actual victim. please support ren, first and foremost.
hello, i just wanted to give a small update, especially cause my last post was probably pretty worrying
i added a small hiatus warning to my blog and im not really going off it yet, but since i did that so silently i figured an actual post might be a better way to announce it...
i just wanted to share i'm doing better and resting! and drawing, surprisingly. i'm not really quite in shape to respond to all of the comments yet, but i'm still very thankful for all of the kind words i received... i honestly expected people to be more judgemental... thank you so much for the understanding :,}
i dont know when actual posts will appear again, but that's probably fine. i kinda just wanted to let everyone know i'm safe and improving (moodwise i mean)! i'm taking things slow, drinking a shit ton of tea, working on uni stuff and buying treats. its been working pretty well for me.
uhh... this blog ain't really my journal so i guess i don't have anything more to say. just - i'm doing decent and i hope yalls day was decent too :,3!
