#ouchie posting

[arkeusruin]

Disabled rant because just need to get some thoughts out

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AHHHHH AHHHGHGHHHHHH RAAHHHHH OUCH OUCH OUCH OUCH FUCKIN HELL GRRRR OUCHIEE WHYYY OOGGH HNNN OWIE OWIE OWIE FUCK FUCK OW AGGHHHHH SHIT BITCH FUCK

Anyways moving on

[cryptile]

There's only two types of pain

The one thats always there you just don't notice it, and the one that makes you say ouchie

[arkeusruin]

shitty lil thing cus rahhhh

[arkeusruin]

Yes I have health anxiety but so would you if you found out that everything you thought was normal about your body was in fact not normal and you don't know what normal is so now you question every single little thing wondering if it's a normal thing

Adding on to that especially with something like EDS where it's your connective tissue which is literally everywhere and yeah same thing with pots and the autonomic nervous which does a shit ton of things, and both of those conditions having so many comorbidities of course I'm fucking anxious

[arkeusruin]

3 days until the test that my fucking quality of life depends on and I'm sick with a fucking 101.7 fever

[cryptile]

"bro why am i soooo tireddd"

Two hours of sleep,:

[arkeusruin]

Vent under the cut because I can't get a break

So apparently constantly overthinking in your head if what you said was morally right and constantly worrying that you're gonna say something wrong and people are gonna hate you and then over explaining because you think if they understand they won't hate you isn't just normal thought patterns- it's genuinely been so bad lately and gah

Slightly freaking out but it's finnee

My friend pointed it out and now I can't stop noticing it-

I genuinely hate how brains work against itself

[arkeusruin]

Y'all I'm having that feeling again -

If I have a fever in a few days call me a fucking prophet or something